20220502StuffScrambledAndMissing

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as have to write in it (PBWorks.com)

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etc, which would be better munged,

then at least consistently done...

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well, trying to finish a move, M+2 or 3

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so an Ikea bag of clothes,
bike clothes is missing,
assumed stolen/ lost?


Track boot found, but where is the other?

Work shoe found, where is the other?

power brick missing
assumed packed

all assumed packed in unlabeled boxes


and a mess remains,
mostly things they wouldn't pack

water gallon jugs

and past deadline to move
though doing everything humanly possible
to harassing office people, likely a customer
trying to see a place and force me out
for enjoyment or what?
loitering in the office?

Late in the day drivel,
home early and a nap,
as out so early after next to no sleep again,
can't keep going like this, without something
happening...

Like Ortho Urgent Care,
another $250 or so
in XRays and Doctor(s),
really Nurse Practitioner
bill showed up electronically first,
then saw on paper,
as electronically didn't work,
tied to an old phone number,
so locked out of that too...

And the keys were to go back,
utilities and other things to do,
but mostly get my stuff out,
got help for some things,
the moto was lifted/ a makeshift ramp
up into a UHaul rental truck
and tied with webbing, bought a set,
and had some others,
a flat bed was considered,
and someone did come along who helped,
given $20, refused $40 in cash from
sibling, and he's a car guy so i guess
helping with pushing a moto is small,
likes the trike, and can suggest he
try Bikes@Vienna

had the moto gone down,
it would have been bad, lifting it,
and somehow fixing, and other problems,
luckily help on the other side too
moving van back into a ramp, and
reduced getting that out,
and really need to do something nice
for nice people, but how?
what?
gift card(s)?
to where?

So i've done Thanks up here before for helping
move, i guess more is likely in order,
even though i'm not done,
there is something called an emotional bank account,
which in social graces, something i know little of,
mostly from Ms. Manners, and a gay cousin,
making fun of a lot of things,
but social situations are complex,
people are complex,
somehow i'm a Level 4 Hoarder?
diagnosed by someone without a degree
in that sort of thing,
but i guess it takes on to know one,
and like alcoholics probably some of the
most difficult to be around,
especially in recovery, or not...

Somehow my needs and wants, wishes
don't compare to others,
sure helping, but so overbearing at times,
even i guess when trying not to be,
but who am i to criticize?
Which really is part of the family disease,
a drunk, lets say, or other behaviors,
can cut into people with words,
gestures, and  similar
violence, i'd imagine, but didn't really experience,
threats of similar, could have hurt badly
though some abused may think that the
bruises may heal, some may not,
the emotional stuff has a way longer shelf life?
residual effect? some wording here needed,
but i digress,

how many trips,
how many miles,
how little sleep?
what modes of transit?

and what rules/ behaviors/ problems arose?

Well, many,

as i rice cook something in a hotel room,
600Watts going to blow the circuit?
and food poisoning?
if i try and save the turkey(ies?)
thawing in an Igloo (tm elsewhere)/
ColeMan (tm elsewhere) cooler

and i'm plain hungry,
shower and bed,
and up later,
but now is later and really not that up,
a tired that doesn't go away,
not unlike depression, grief, and other concerns,
but that's metaPhysical?
Emo?
and other things,
which i'd rather not go there,
as have so many other things to think about...

Paying $100+ / night, and i'm not watching cable?
I use WiFi,
no free breakfast, but that is likely
just coffee and sugar,
oddly not a lot of tea,
but a B&B this is not,
finding cheaper is difficult,
and scary from online reviews,
perhaps mine needs to include,
without a lot of stalking, harassment,
etc...
Stairs, like curb are four letter words,

/Click to rice cooker going off
likely spilling all over the floor?

but not an accessible entrance,
pack and unpack my own trolley/
carts, and don't have what i need
where i need it,

clothes, bike clothes, rather expensive,
can't find, so down to donated,
and risking exposure problems,
finding socks, matching one,
instead of the odd one here and there,
collected missing parts,
saw a box labeled parts,
some professional movers,
and how they do things,
i guess, to storage...

Hand truck/ dolly/ cart,
so have a file cabinet left,
and a lot of other things,
to do manually and how long is that going to take,
IDK, if i kill myself, fairly literally
in 80Degree F weather, it is possible,
i guess, if i try and take care of myself,
also called self care,
and advocate for myself
instead of rolling over to more abuse,
neglect, exploitation, etc
so Self Advocacy,
may come into play,
idk, Level Something Hoarder
and OCD diagnosis, not something anyone
every tried sticking on me,
and by unqualified people too,
so there it is,

v. Autism, and a spectrum at that,
repetitive, like Obsessive,
Compulsive?
or just plain a need of having data,
like a robot, need nutritional info/
facts, and losing those, so
have i failed?


still bubbling,
not the click i thought i was?
how long does it take a pot or rice to cook
and how long to eat,
and what to do with left overs?

how many watts is what?
a rice cooker ought to be OK?
Back in the day there were these little
heating elements, take along and make tea,
boil water, i guess use for instant coffee too,
my mother, i guess would have wanted tea,
and how that works out?

camping like my Uncle, packing and moving along,
trying to find work, he did well, i guess
and lived frugally, aand that enabled me
to finish college, while not a good ending
for him, suicide with cancer,
and could have taken him in with me?
in a group like living place,
but he ended up in a hotel,
away from family,
sick, terminal,
and died, i guess how i thought people should
doing that sort of thing,
a history of abuse i guess,
from survival to memorial day i guess,
idk, touchy subjects and don't have th
bandwidth, spoons Auties call it,
maybe others, idk,
chairs and spoons, capacity,
number of chairs to match the number of people,
or whatever, click and check in usually spills over rice
cooker, not sure how far to fill it,
and usually over do it, but usually in a kitchen
sink so doesn't matter much,

Opened the new red folding scale,
was going to be gift, a little voice
wanted one, but hidden, and spoken for,
dominated/ overbearing,
or child/ nosy/ neighbor, or other things,
some things may have come back,
door(s) left open, illegal entry
and other problems?

Neighbors who have keys to other people's places
may not be good, nor legal, something Muslim
about not being locked in,
and legalities of letting others into a federally
subsidized space,
wonder what the laws are,
but what happened to those books?
did i pack them, or someone else?
worth saving at $/pound/ box,

Maybe the final click,
food yet?
1 pound rice?
part of a gallon
filtered good enough
and the collected water
could have carried but bailed
as someone talking at me,
good job, or similar praise?
and another click
sounds like it, this time?
20-40 minute egg timer?
found one of those too,

and didn't pick up eggs,
they don't travel well,

like the kid trailer,
old and ratty, not wheels,
not sure where they are
packed?
not seen, had them,
but where?
i know where they were, kept them
together, but so many things
without the corresponding,
me with out a place mostly,
how long is this gig good for?
rain forecast and so much stuff,
can't move it myself,
and unlike the road culture,
an trailers, and eBikes,
cargo, individual trips,
not a kid falling asleep in the back,
poke  mom in the back,
it might feel good,
knock knock jokes maybe would help?
What do you call a back?
mom back?
a window?
no...
a blockage?
wind screen?
drawing board?
that tickles, stop,
distracted driving?/ riding?
my practice A/B/Cs
Air
not enough, too much,
Boring?
Crappy, Cars,
Buses
AutoMobiles,
etc...

but at least i'm using up some things,
rice lasts, water doesn't
filtered and taste,
there is a cool water dispenser,
filtered but from county sources
and they are doing a cleanse 
of the water pipes so tastes weird,
like the cup of cold water at storage?
nicotine? how would i know hat that tastes like?
i don't smoke, but others do..
and how that gets in a water source?

But forgot to take keys leaving so early,
and didn't have a good way to get the
hand truck, so less optimized trips,
than i would have liked,
miles of walking, in mid day heat,
and changing routes, and other things,
how to do the rest, and already past deadline,
so am i Dead?
as the phrase goes?
feels like it...

But how would i know how dead feel,
if anything, problems with emo words,
and getting hungry, chop up something
now that one power circuit (sp?) is done?

Typos abound, and that's only part of it,
tired and it shows in word choice,
formatting and typing,
not not even doing FreeWriting pen/
fingers on page, but not that good
at handwriting that anyways...


Turkey, how to do that,
no dishwasher, dishes, knives
dropped, a butcher's block
and those went all over, how to clean
with just hand soap?
go buy dish soap? up and out at midnight?
only places open would be a drug store?
even late night groceries not open?
or pandemic lifted so back to 24H?

And had some, but how to pack?
leave there, for cleaning before leaving,

Kitchen and a mess,
cleaning there and security deposit,
stain/ cleaning, seeing, as lights low,
broken and wouldn't fix,
i guess how to tally up all the hate,
and non maintenance that happened
and didn't over 9 years,
something dark in the bottom of the fridge,
spray that, and soak , rinse the drawers,
DishWash the ones out
and nothing would be clean enough for abusive
people in the first place,
pulling stickers off the fridge, got most
but one fell apart, backing and magnet
separated,

Old Einstein (sp?) and tongue out for his birthday,
better hope for humanity when see people on bikes,
but cargo?
moving that way?
and the physics of cars/trucks/buses
v. bikes?

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20220503 Jerry

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