SocialSituations2020
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Introduction/Definition/etc
Several things recently,
i'll call them Situations
in a milieu of anxiety, hate,
etc...
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Young yellow Labrador retriever,
puppy with a young female handler/
trainer, and going up a hill, they are in the
middle/ around and i stop resting a bit,
generally like seeing animals,
especially in the park,
and after a long walk,
so not that much of a rush,
stop and socialize,
mostly with the animal
but the female is in charge,
sort of,
the dog gets excited around people,
and wants to jump,
but for training,
and to become a service animal,
for the blind, it turns out,
can not do that, so an Autistic
like behaviorist, and regimented
environment, seemingly cruel
(having experienced
CrueltyInThePark2018
maybe, but maybe not)
A yellow lab, apparently like black labs
are hungry all the time,
(research wise, might be something to that,
some gene/ mix that explains a lot about me
as a human too)
at least this one
which is kinda skinny, kinda not,
(teen like lanky (sp?)?)
might be muscle, i can't tell,
short haired, so Goldens
(i had two
and say we field trained our first,
later know to have hip dysplasia (sp?)
but i was too young, to know what,
how, why, etc...(
our (my father and i, dad being the
alpha male/human, typical
but we won't get into
MyFatherPassedAwayLastNight
AlaNotIntCon2018
ThereIsSomeThingWrongInWhoVille2019
MourningPages2019
etc baggage at the moment, it's there,
just not jumping into it,
right now...
)
second was pet quality,
from a breeder out west,
arrived in the airport
big paws, in a crate, flew in
from a storm or so, must have
been scared shitless/
but don't remember any problems
cleanup, then, later on,
escape artist from the kitchen
barricaded with chairs,
out looking for him in the woods,
calling his name, must have looked
crazy, and possibly predicting how i'd
later be seen...)
but had a companion, when mostly alone,
likely autistic like qualities
and our first, as the family stories go,
was the same weight, hair colour,
and length/ height (tail? spread out?
tech questions of how _here_?
likely laying on the floor in front of
the TV, etc) so in a culture of youngest,
seemingly ignored, i tend to not ignore
the youngest, smallest, different,
excluded, etc, possibly to my detriment,
anyways seeing a puppy, golden like
and makes my day, some happiness,
i'm generally not capable of
with major depression, dysthymia (sp?), etc
and outdoors in nature, getting exercise,
etc, doing errands,
and another dog, older female with a
handler, older male, somewhat critical,
coming down the hill, problems with other
animals too, somewhat, can't do this,
that and the other,
all to regimented to me,
like drafted a poor unsuspecting animal
into what seems like slavery,
and child labour, i'm now surmising,
working, helping, all good qualities,
but when is the time to be a puppy,
and all the unhappy childhood stuff
that i would not want for others,
The dog keeps getting fed,
treats and distracted,
eating quite well around me,
for not jumping, and sit,
try to pet, some think it's a come
behind and mount?
a blind person uses a dog to lead,
and has to be comfortable to have a person
behind while naturally not want to
have something untrusted back there,
stepping on tail, walking into,
but the service animal is also blocking
directing and leading...
My vision isn't what it used to be,
so might need one eventually,
hopefully correctable,
but for day to day
bicycling and walking,
i'm doing ok, (imo)
but would need glasses to ride/drive
in the normal day to day traffic, imho,
and likely HateFaireZ2019
results, but will see...
When have money,
don't spend on more fun things,
like
PostHolidayTreats2020
MotorCycleShow2020
etc...
Catching up on Bills, etc...
So i explain some of my situation
and history, but trainer is (overly?
& unemotional?) focused,
and dog / puppy is on training/ task
even if not what seems to be passing,
but also not knowing the techniques
and a feeling of being ignored,
a dog is a pet, to me, and an object
service, working and to be ignored,
not what i want, and unpleasant,
though pretending to be it seems...
Anyways, older female dog
growls at the younger one,
which turns submissive,
and pulled away, dominates the
path and we have to go around,
dog walking and happy,
encountering new, experiencing
and wanting to people please,
a character defect in some 12Step
and possibly clinical, why please
bipeds? What's the point, they are
subjugating/ dominating, and basically
slave masters, in a system that
in other species/ humans is immoral,
illegal, etc...
Anyways, depart different directions,
and got information about where,
what, etc. based in NY
promised to someone else,
and might be helpful to me,
might need protective functions,
etc, details to be researched,
mostly the there is a solution,
both companion, and sight,
but will see... or not, not sure...
Encounter again more recently
still jumpy, do i have food?
I carry my human treats,
but not sure, in plastic,
bubble gum, maybe
smores caramel corn,
some odds and ends,
not sure what all is in there
but would want something
to have for 5-10, 20 mile walks,
even if have any money no
places to buy, no time, takes so long
to walk, but also out and about and
possibly good for me,
I don't answer,
not sure who was asking,
seems like others are listening in/
around/ stalking? protective detail(s)?
concerned neighbors? walkie talkie
while doing walkies?
chocolate (and fake aspirin)
is not good for dogs, i have to weigh stuff,
and checksum totaling helps, would be nice to share,
but messes things up for me beyond
for DropFoodScale2019
alts, MungedMetaData2017
and new years trying to do better,
but spmehow ending up worse?
Ignored again, didn't get to pet the dog,
staring at me, walking away,
likely dogs as pack animals see
as abandonment, everyime not there
last time seen, no sense of see again,
and happiness so far away, fleeting,
even if fed while sitting,
and staying down,
later thing quadriPed trying to be
BiPed, stand on hind two legs,
like the Wheelie two Wheel
going to one, and/or a horse,
and riding jumping, obstacles, etc...
Part of what i've come up with
to process and getting training
like vingiettes (sp?) exemplars?
AI learning type stuff, iirc...
The whole
MotorCycleShow2020
with shared clothing,
not cleaned, and possible
TimeForAChange2020
And a guy, old
when i'm trying to do other things
wants me to read a small print
for him, part charger?
number, serial number, what?
and i'm burning up, busy with other
stuff purchasing packing up
to get out of the heat,
and he doesn't like phones/ smartphones
but is not Amish, as has a motor,
uses electricity,
electric razor and wants help,
i'm not available, interrupted
and others are around,
i'm burning up in the heat,
been problems like that there before
not what i'm there for,
nor anyone else, mild biohazard,
hep, etc ,forgot the details, but don't share those
things, universal precautions, iirc...
and seems like help rejecting complainer,
left with a i didn't help him,
not begging, but not nice either,
thanks for trying ?
i have nitrile gloves with me,
might have holes, walked so many miles with them,
but better than nothing?
a smartphone camera
could be used,
a zoom function on a smart phone
would be good,
but he doesn't like those,
he saying he doesn't have them,
and nothing i'm doing is right
my hat is in the way,
of his light?
but not for me, flourescent and/or others
dark outside, to light inside, shades/ transitions lenses,
but am i the one looking, or is he?
and what info / help is he asking for,
the other people around, i don't know,
and privacy is a problem, there and elsewhere,
i'd probably show the robots to kids,
there are several, and parents, but more
school time, and it's noisy, i don't know staff
there, and most others i don't recognize,
they may recognize me, but that's another matter,
as odd appearing as i may be,
to others, it's me, and i'm me all over
whereever i got, whenever,
and if i don't train whistle, honk, etc
be funny/ try sometimes the little ones
seem to think i'm sick/ broken, something
is wrong, and causes concern, worry,
lots of endless kid like questions,
etc...
so no go, not helping i am somehow
(again there, and more than one place,
continually but not see my self as,
odd, different, and self image
mirrored as somehow bad,
kill Trump, White people ,etc
racially when not ignored,
new to me black staff
everyone else pretty much
almost all white?
it could be the burbs,
where i was born, and most
middle America, not the diversity
of world issues/ and possible global
war, which may be what people are
getting anxious about, threat levels,
Trump baby gates, closed off,
create/expect a problem,
and you/they/we
might find one)
different, bad, and basically tortured,
again, social situations, when different,
autism is the easiest to possibly understand,
Mars and Venus is one way, talking, etc
I could get all
SkinnyBitchInTheKitchByRoryFreedmanAndKimBarnouin2020
SkinnyBitchBakeryByKimBarnouin2020
SkinnyBitchInLoveByKimBarnouin2020
would be a little much, imnsho,
requires emotion, and past my prime
Several more
but to explain them
write them clearly, clearer,
and it takes energy which is drained
in social situations, replaying them
and not solving them
drags me down,
seemingly intentionally...
Modified Text
What's Missing?
What Can Be Found?
What Can Not Be Found?
How To Analyze?
Lenses
Noob
Kids
Play nice!?
DisAbled
Autistic
Green Badge, Not On,
do not approach...
Somewhere Yellow to Red
most of the time,
depends upon situation
so plain, manual non smart/ intelligent
An intelligent electronic version,
needed...
Who is it?
What do they Want?
Why?
How?
Where?
When?
Details, while combersome also make it possible/
impossible/ torturous...
DiaBetic
Must be blood sugar, high, low something?
Police
What's going on here?
You can't Do That?
Stop That!
WhatEver it is...
Peace Officer
Not thump the bad people mentality,
but can't we all get along instead?
Self Defense
Another set up,
situations created to make others uncomfortable
know to like being left alone
and doing the opposite...
Intentionally...
ByStander
Somehow detached look at from different angles/
perspectives, ?
3rd/4th Party
See more than the participants individual perspectives
Chicken Soup for the Soul Help Me Candid Camera Hero Like Show
Someone trying to recreate those?
Locally?
General Public
Assumptions
Time Limits
Book Data
ISBN
Bound
CopyRight
Pages
index
Links
Conclusion
Summary of experience or similar
None really, explaining, and describing it
from my perspective, after the fact,
and wonder if it comes around again,
likely to encounter several of these people
again, possibly unlike
MotorCycleShow2020
which is yearly, but go to those stores,
back into that community,
and more likely,
TimeForAChange2020
likely ignored, but i may have to raise
it again, others might have heard/
read, and it becomes an issue,
in general with mechanical,
etc, perhaps because not of my
generation and that stuff is general
knowledge, taught in gym and health
classes having been out of general
social stuff for a long time, not heard
know, and other issues...
Most of it is the differences
people pretending it seems to be social,
another one, walking thru the park,
and two females, walkers, and i got short cut,
they are somewhat lost, i offer directions,
climbing up hill, past dog park,
and thru the woods, but not a friendly type
thing, i'm somehow bothering them,
but they are somehow following/ critical,
etc...
i'd probably use the b* words,
the dog is the only one that it literally
fits well, but the behaviors are similar,
even with the older male,
and well, it's rather worn thin
after a while...
Like the N word,
Nerd, etc, Geek,
gets to lose meaning,
and Race and Religion are
so hot topics, a PBS series on
Obama v Trump, whatever it was called,
and just tired of it all,
so play games, inore the world,
wonder why people are getting sick,
worried, stress and public health,
when WWI or WWII and influenza
so badly, stressors high and sickness
multiplies, physically as well as socially,
the contagions are similar to the sick
like behaviors, not good enough,
BeComingByMichelleRobinSonObama2019
describes, but other parts of critical,
devisive, etc, politically hot words,
which perhaps describe the social
climate (mostly precursors to hate, afaict)...
Discussion
A place for feedback on the page presented
What situations have you noticed?
Is there a temperatuer of the social situations
and localized weather type stuff for that
type of thing?
Does it take sociology type things instead?
Concepts of Mores?
Not individual, but group/ culture/ so vague
type stuff, that it's not generally understandable,
to many, especially me?
Do you have to warn people they might be
written about, if you encounter them?
And/or is this self journalling published on the
web somehow exempt?
Processing, as post, and figure out this odd
myoptic ? world, like Martians on Earth,
Strangers on Strange Land
and getting Stranger than Fiction,
?
Somehow Venus plays into this too,
no? At what orbit/ how many rings,
oh that's Saturn...
Pluto? where are you?
All only for the rich to consider?
So screwed this planet and country
up, time to leave it?
Even if in fantasy worlds of game playing
for seeming sanity and escape there?
Mostly just ran out of energy to type
it and things to say...
Self Critical about how it came out,
this and other times...
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