20220112DoxSelf.HP.txt

20220112DoxSelf.HP.txt

I'm Gerald K. Williams
i reside at 901 S Dinwiddie St #423
Arlington, VA 22204

my new PO Box is
PO Box 1561
Bailey's CrossRoads, VA 22041

mu cell phone is 571.214.8954

My SSN is 214808167

Motivation

givien short deadlines and likely problems with
Social security
taking 10 calls to get a n address changes
they somehow don't like me
and it's a required housing recertification item
can't seem to get an address change
which takes an overnight to process
and will be sent out tonight

most calls were perpetual waits,
to a too busy cal back after a 1.50 minunte 50 second or so
introduction talking about the new stimulus/ Cost of Living COLA
amount and included how much the cost of Medicare was/is this
new year
some survey, how was the service
lots of push towards internet,
currently don't have internet at home the building wifi went down,
the first snow storm
while i was on it, a Monday, iirc?
and hasn't come back

going to Arlington Mill Community Center to use ARltingtonWireless
wifi

recent late night upgrading the G51Plus
required 19 MB or so download
and a powered reboot to upgrade sstem software

latino? kids playing around
harassing threatening
and taking video of me
guy leaning back doing selfie with me in the background
on a bench towards the entrance door of
on the plaza level
saying i know where you go

i got annoyed wit htat, didn't say anything
they are kids/ aged out?

they may have been told to leave
banded from the site
idk
i had left to the family bathroom
to use that
and stayed in there fo ra while
while had some wifi
and power
lowering the shower stall seat
without curtain

if only the bad peoplek know where i am


i write about things that happen to me,
and around me,
i try to change the system

the system doesn't see mto want to change

this is not that different than a lot of other
disclosures, most done by tothers,
security breaches,
usually a credit report
financial place gives out the information
bad landlords/ slumlords,
people on the take,
gang like harassment

already happening

threatened to be evicted
many don't like me
trying to get rid of me
been saying that for ears
some say i own the building
something given to me for helping some people
and/or token white
keeping people in housing
instead of the typical for profit getting rid of people
and the churn: moving people around for fees,
legal services, and other likely graft,
cleaning crews, maintenance and all that make work
instead of stable housting as probably intended,

i've been harassed daily, mostly for being white,
disabled, old, whatever,

i wore bunny ears, after clown noses,
when the pandemic hit,
as noses and respiratory was higher risk,
it was part of the "costume"
aka uniform as Annie of Annie's Ace HardWare in Petworth
used to say,  before moving to BrookLand?
up the MetBranchTrail MBT

My parents have died, both by now
I'm technically orphaned
i have Special Needs Trust(s) from lost relaties,
my fathers' i went through
my aunt who died and left some people
my grandmothers/fathers rural hill top house
which had been drilled through by fracking in that area
she (my aunt)  died of cancer,
and i didn't talk to her on her deeathbed,
i didn't know how and don't deal with death,
and loss very well, not that anyone does..

also when my mother was sick
after being mean to me, calling me spoiled, etc
stop contacting/talking to her for about 6+ months
after she had had a stroke...
My sister, an architect, took the burden /
brunt of that...
I have little relatives that aren't so little anymore
and age of driving though only one of the two does, afaict,
i haven't seen them since my mother's funderal on FaceBook
and i'm not a FaceBook person, (not my choice, privacy, right)///

i saw the recording of it
when couldn't get in Live...
I don't go to funerals,
and hoping not to be at my own...


i am not currently suicidal
this is done deliberately
under mild duress about/
around getting requirements
for recert...

i was told i was wasting resources
on my third call, when i got someone
i kept trying
first call was Friday afternoon
trying to get all the documentation
required for housing recertification
due soon...

i may have failed housing inspections
financial is only one part
of the recertification process

paying rent
i currently pay $419 in rent
that amount is based on what
income i have from social security disability insurance
currently at $1601.xx some odd change
so about 30% of income
for disabled minus medical
which i haven't been spending on
dental lost teeth, extracted &
 root canals not replaced,

optical:
important in order to drive
though Autism Spectrum Disorder (formerly Aspergers)
likely not been formally diagnosed,
though strangers walk up to me and say i am,
i don't know them and they don't treat me
as a disabled with depression: major recurrent
and dysthymia, diagnosed
after a year of Comprehensive Day Treatment
at Mount Vernon Community Mental Health Cetner
in Alexandria/ Mount Vernon VA
back in 1994+?
which filed for social security disability insurance
SSDI
which i got in about 1998?
and tried living on every since
on limited income
having been homeless on General Relief,
food stamps, and
was suicidal then,
I lost a lot of people and work/career,
stayed on a coworkers/ friends living room floor
as allergic to the couch
while he was traveling
and then overstayed my welcome
went into shelter(s)
which had /made a space/ idk
i later finished my bachelors degree,
one of the goals in CDT with a thesis advisor
including a Java game written
lexiphage (eats words, like PacMan tm elsewhere)
from sample code of learn java in 24 hours or so
(referenced in the accompanying paper)
but 12 step words, slogans, and the answer
which went to another level/ step
AA was ssuggested as most popular
though i'm not really an AA,
no desire to drink, nor drug...

we lost people there (CDT)
there was a suicide
and a copy cat

i was kind of dumped
during that time
and problems with case management
my parents helped me go to the supervisor/
director who had left
seen privately
about that time doing more advocacy
and got some help from NVMHCA
Northern Virgina Mental Health Consumers Association
which may not be active, idk
i did the YahooGroup.com mod
but lost the password
and think it went under
with the RRWG
and Drop in Cetner
 and people moving away to Florida etc
PathWAy Home(s) in Florida seems to have started up
idk if related structure created there,
or just name conflict/ symbol table , technically


Since i wear bunny ears,
partially to be funny
partially to be seen when biking,
walking on busy roads,
etc,
it's not that surprising that people notice
and kids in particial seem curious where Bunny lives,
where the hutch is, etc
since i may be read in school(s), jails, institutions,
police, law enforcement, medical, idk, jsut what i've heard
a lot of we/i "have to read you"s
from NoVAPeers.PBWorks.com
advocacy after the VirginiaTech shootings
a blue ribbon panel after the Sully Police Station
shootings, iirc
i forget the time line right now
i May have met SH Cho
after a Brain Injury Foundation
social / event
but briefly and didn't understand
(see TheShortOfIt)

i was in depression and other support groups
wehre people talked about wanting to die,
that was part of the "Therapy" / support
talking about it

i am not doing that
this is a specific direct action against,
Social Security which can't seem to update the address
in a reasonable amount of time,
i made ~10 calls over 5 days
on a week deadline for a
county requirement for keeping housing
which is currently about $800 a month
in housing choice voucher.

Tt is most of what keeps me financially afloat
during the month, to balance the budget, so to speak
i got to food pantry
it takes hours
starting at 7am
waiting for a 9.30a or so start
when thet vans arrive

i've had people waiting
to talk/see to me afterwards...

i am not that public a person,
despite doing this.

some think i'm a public figure
and newsworthy, giving themselves
permission to publish about me
but i can't seem to keep that privacy
that many/most people get and need...

so if only the bad people know where i am,
what am i hiding?

Ironically bunnies die when in shock/fright
instead of being torn to bits by predators,
i guess, it's fight or flights,
and only have flight, hopping fast
and changing direction,
no fight response really

i like animals despite lab work/ research
that killed them,
i left that job, objecting to the work,
and owe the species
and have tried to help when i could
i'm particular to golden retrievers,
as had one as a child and then later
first had hip displasia (sp?)
and went to a farm, literally, not figurately,
when my parents and us kids went to the big city,
from a college town

BelleFonte, PA
was my birthplace
the closest hospital
near STatae College, PA
the centeral campus of Penn State
Joe Paterno was a neighbor,
from what i hear,
i was young and remember some,
big stadium going to a game
and being on TV with our golden
for something but don't remember what,
the coin thing in the mailbox
local park down the end of the road,
and a little of the layout,
and a bike repair class where i
got a scar on one hand
the spokes were invisible, i thought
that had disapeared, learned they didn't,
the hard way...

i don't have many who can fill in the gaps,
i have a lot of stuff,
keeping many papers,
etc which is about all i have of my shistory,
given memory issues, many from medication
for depression, losing short term memory,
can't ruminate on something you can't even
remember, but can't function very well
without much working memory...

Currently some think i'm hoarding
i think it's not that yet,
i'm working on the food packaging
though with depression quite a back log
so condense packaging down as much as possible
currenyly it's less than a tub full,
pretty much things pile up
ideally i could keep up with it
but can't seem to, a good time is
staying even instead of more...
some comes in,  some processed, reduced
and goes out...

i can't lean over or get sick
feel like dying, probably compressing my chest/
heart, which may be enlarged,

i've had similar problems since before going to
Patch Adams Geshunhiet (sp? like bless you in German) Tnstitute
the "clown camp"
AVeteransSonLaughsAndSpitsOnME
 fingers on lips, like childhood razzing
  spit comes out
   someone is below on the ground
HippieClownCamp2011 or 2012?
 more PC version of that

that is what i did to try to stay alive after my
father died,

my aunt and
my mother have since died
"inheritance" went into the Special Needs Trusts
administered by two different places
many people see that and think i'm rich
i'm not, the SNT has that,
and i'd have to ask for parts of it,
in a byzantine (sp?) process under a contract
like a personal non profit like arrangement
which is generally available to disabled
under federal law
so can't get to it,
it's not accessible to me
and not available for debts

like back disconnected Cable ~$300
landline $200

both of which fell behind while juggingly
Lidl and other things...

Building internet goes out in a couple more months
sometime in March but the first winter storm got it,
and hasn't come back in about a week though seems
much longer...

i'm a geek, worked in tech,
studied computer science and clinincal psych
combined for the above mentioned Java game
thesis project, Java was not being taught
it was / is an adult program
reqiuring being out of high  school
for 8 years or so

i was going to a technical school in upstate New York
a small liberal arts college named Eisenhower College
in Seneca FAlls, NY
up the lake froo Cornell, in  Ithica (sp?)
it has since closed the summer after i was there for a
first year enginnering program, trying to get into
Computer Engineering, but rolling admissions,
not gettting 3.5 grade level requirement,
small school closing trying to get students, etc 

i sailed on that lake, Cayuga?
having sailed with a club that my mother was commodore
of, NIHSA NIH Sailing Association
we (my mother having joint custody,
every other weekend with her)
lived on the grounds on Oyster Harbor
below Annapolis
sailing out of an inlet there
19' day sailors called Flying Scots,
out of DeepCreek Lake Maryland
they were club boats that we worked on repairng/
maintaining them,
part of the requirements to be skipper
i also raced them in Hot Shot yearly regattas
likely winning something as crew, likely not 1st
place
thought won some in college,
but not the finals...

i taught sailing for a summer
after leaving a medical school i worked for
and objected to what i was doing
then worked at a book store

later bought my family friends
Porsche 914 think Karmen Gia
falttened out aka the poor man's Porsche
this a 1.7 litre engine,
the 2.0 was the Porsche one

both eventually got crunched

I originally became homeless
following working for MCI
in Pentagon City, Arlington VA
what has become the TSA buildings
from what i understand

i had a motorcycle, my first,
a TLR 200 or 250, 200 likely,
a dirt bike bought from a newspaper ad?
from a guy around Ft Myer.
it was small for me, i called it Shriner like,
but had taken the motorcylce safety classes
to get the license endorsement. from
class at Alexandria campus
of the NoVA Community College
I had dropped a class bike in the cold,
the first class of the season
and still passed,
i went on to the advanced class
out in LeesBurg/ NVCC Sterling/ Loudoun?
and that required your own bike,
which i had by then, likely part of
why i bought one...

it was lost when repeatedly kicked over
by someone(s) when evicted from West Alexandria
apartment, my first after a group home
since i had an aging golden back in ~1990+

after my cousin died of AIDS doing hospice like
in northern California, near San FranCisco
i had taken his Honda Accord out to him
driving it cross country, my first big trip...
After he died, my mother bought it,
i bought it from her, iirc
My cousin and i had travelled up to relatives
around Lancaster, PA Amish area near the Capital HarrisBurg,
not far from York, PA where the Harley Davidson plant is,
i've visited, a rather cold trip up
after Timmonium fair grounds
mortorcycle show, now some years back

when my father died i got another
going in about his time of year to ColeMan PowerSport
in Falls Church having the SNT
and started paper work for buying that,
my first big expsnse,
what they had, ,that interested me was a dual sport
Kawasaki Versus 650
somewhat a crotch rocket, a lot of bike
by comparison to a 200 CC dirt bike also
serviced there back in the day,
so went to classes, track days with
MotorCycle ExCitement
in Summit Point, West Virginia

that's about all i can think of,
many other things are still private,

and if you call Social Security Edsall office
and try to get a benefits letter sent to me,
thank Ms. G.
i'll keep that an initial,
as not about her,
but the system and unreasonable things happening
and not happening to disabled
and advocates,,


some may say it's a Jerry Seinfield
do the opposite,
or a HEarts shoot the moon type thing to do,
but security breaches happen a lot,
and systems are to be reducundent
and fault tolerant, even in Pandemic
and similar, Unprecedented Times,
i may be failing/ losing housing anyways,
and some sort of anchor/ base

it's not felt like lying not saying these
things, and people aren't respecting my privacy
anyways particiaulrly the "bad" people
especially gang, harassing, collections,
and other trouble makers,

i don't know waht an be done wiht SSN
it used to be on the drivers license,
i changed that a long time ago when it was an
option,
so it was rather public,
and school id back in college used that,
so it's been known more than most may imagine,
not sure what all this used for
my credit rating probably isn't very good to start
people would need photo id,
and address change problems there anyways,

applying for loans, likely rejected anyways
i've been to the bank accounts i have
and one texted me a code
which said don't tell anyone
which conflicted with him telling/ asking me
for the code, so they need to change the system,
helping supposedly in person
then tried selling me a credit card,
which is evil,
he likese them
said he's on that side of the equation...


and some other issues,
maybe later...

AMF
Adios Mother F*****/ aka My Friend
a signoff from GreaseMan Radio days
before he called asking if the
145h street bridge was going to be a regular stop
after a plane crashed into it
and got suspended/ removed from DC
think Howard Stern
 or similar shock jock

Jerry W.
aka harvey the invisible biker bunny
DancesWithCars
Local PitA
etc

p.s. yeah, i slept on it, at least,
before doing this