20220121DoingPennance.HP.txt

20220121DoingPennance.HP.txt

So another day in the NeighborHood?


Holiday week, so go get food from the WareHouse
but what day?
crappy day TuesDay

WednesDay
less crappy, warmer,
starting to feel human again
SomeWhat...

Up in the night, likely as usually
harassing knocking
if I'm snoring it's a good thing
no reason to try to break in
lying about what you are doing/ trying to do
and likely getting caught too...

Shower
upload
pack HP
but how?
soft things around it

quickly upload things

Don's Johns chemical toilet
truck shows up and takes my wind break
that's some heavy shit,
i say,
he says if i need a job
Don knows I'm funny...

got a little video clip of it
he's got mirrors and i guess say me filming
let him get out of the shot,
lift on the back,
not seen every day,
and some kids may enjoy that...
but gives away a lot...

HP HandWarmer,
a little, but not a lot
cold weather and screen gets odd

upload 2 HP.txt files
didn't get to update them
still in notes form,
but a couple days later,
so need to put something up,
or create a backlog
like with food packaging data...

Packing
Remember that day in school when they taught
you to pack light?
Somehow the kewl kids weren't carrying much
wonder if they did any homework at all?

IDK, i may have been a kewl kid,
but likely a geek too,
too many classes not enough of the popular sports,
sure i multi lettered, but not on FootBall
BaseBall, etc later in HighSchool
and college didn't have teams,
except maybe for sailing,
and competed against a couple other schools on the lake,
a girls school? Hood College?
or something, Ithaca (Sp?) Cornell was too far down,
and we were up by the sewage treatment plant
which may have been an issue
don't go in the water,
this was early AIDS? HIV?
1981-2?
so might have been a good thing
FreeLove and get sick,
but they don't even know what it is,
as a freshman, not that lucky
The social pecking order was pretty bad,
upper classmen/women
in a college smaller than my high school
doing well to start
but an accident coming back
classmate's father was a trooper,
and they had rented a car, group type of thing
from down here, and i got to drive the difficult part,
after stopping at McD or similar,
icy roads, but i was my turn,
slide along road, along siderail,
crashing for the first time,
and rented car,
A/C DC playing HighWay to Hell,
cold shake, StrawBerry, or vanilla,
likely keep cool, while blasting heat in the car,

well an interstate,
and police, report, and keep driving,
hear they should have closed the road,
turn in damaged,

less than stellar way to start the new term/
year, and a January intensive term on PhiloSophy
to boot...
Not something I've studied, nor know anything about
but was pushing near straight As first term,
til then, iirc,
pretty easy school by comparison to HighSchool
so spent time sailing,
writing in a journal
and the local barn by the lake,
turned into a bar, playing pool,
likely drinking too much,
not much to do there,
and never done a real winter,
by tundra standards,
wind swept, lake effect
the GreatLakes create their own weather pattern,
so near there, get lots of wind,
and combined with cold, and snow,
crunchy
had thoughts of snow, skiing,
seeing my grandParents on the way up/ back,
never really happened
next year(s) did go on one ski trip,
with a girlfriend by then, iirc,

had a car, was cheaper for them to get me one,
so mom bought a junker from a colleague,
seized engine and they wanted to know why,
so forensics too,
I'd never really even held a tool,
as an apartment dweller,
going to engineering school,
might be good to learn
so VW Rabbit (ironic, no?)
guberment/ puke aka olive green
could have been a jeep,
and a signed M*A*S*H* photo from the
guy who it was about, Trapper, not HawkEye,
iirc,
though no relation to the show, nor person(s),

Though Eisenhower was General Officer
5 Star during the World War
(2 i presume, survived 1, i guess,
increased in rank)
a small balding man, from out West,
Mame his wife, and some photos as memorial,
some researchers, and library,
flies in the library,
while i thought i good to read parts of the
encyclopedia, Britannica, adds some class,
i guess, didn't have a copy at home
like some kids in early school,
working on being geniuses, or something

Another Punched Me,
I'd though him joking but he did,
then took me home to clean me up
i guess to get in less trouble,
not sure anything happened there,
could have owned him/ the place,
but didn't...

But not sure where i was going with that,
first girlfriends,
OneToOne Club part of it,
crush on a girl, nice blonde
but not into me, very much
you see i was from the other side of the tracks,
and they disbanded the 121 club,
i guess we were having too much fun,
loud music, club room,
and getting too close,
or something...

College GF1 seemed to be a bit country,
GF2, her friend, 
and GF1 wanted the wool sweater to keep,
some reasons i said now,
being mean, or houw ould it look?
why is someone taking my clothes?
off is one thing, but to keep?
Never really did the letter jacket,
pinning a girl thing, so a mystery
and still a geek/ nerd it would have been then,
not voted the smartest on the team,
though somehow it seemed incorrect to me,
i guess grades and AP/ Honors
well before AB? type classes,
international standards,
anyways, High School is hell,
for some, many/ most likely...

Walked with a lot of stuff,
packed badly,
is it going to fall?
not tied down, a tractor trailer,
farm type good for a bail of hay
i guess to take to the back yard from
front curb, but not much for sitting and
pruning, milking cows, digging and planting
a tray of something, flowers/ shrubs,
or something, but hundreds of pounds of capacity,
so not as worried about overloading that way...

I'm still injured, does it make sense
to go while hurt/ still in pain,
nota lot, some time helped,
very painful and concerned with the
overnight, and emergency room visit at night,
might better know if broken,
so xRays, sports medicine type
Emergency/ Urgent Care
only been to one, that i recall,
and that closed with a redevelopment,
some tests and ridiculing staff,
so not sure i'd want to again,
but ER flooded with ConVid19
OMICRON Corn? better make that KORN
sounds kewler..

Late and a long line,
selling something
handing out flyers
Census was one a ways back,
this SNAP/FoodStamps
EBT i tell the woman doing it,
running the line,
but supposed to do after,
in a room next to the WareHouse,
which one?
Doesn't make sense to me,
wy wait until then,
couldn't they give outn umbers and
get it donw while we are idle?

I'm havint to mask, been unmasked
not sure what i've got with me,
pickedup a likely used one off the floor,
to get going

standing in traffic, not much, but some
pacing, a dark sleek newer model BMW
pulls up, i let him/ them by,
could have dogs in teh back for park(s),
idk, not sure what type of dogs go with
a vehicle like that,
Mom had one back in the day a 2002
my uncle said i should get one,
mom had sold hers for my sibling to go to college,
never did get to drive it,
but the Ford Festiva, i'd played
and learning manual/ stick shifting
on sand driveway going down to the docks,
not a bad way to learn, little harm likely
as sand and less damage to the clutch,
and soft if go off course a bit,
embankment,

Anyways, guy comes out, approaching me,
you work here?
no, just spend a lot of time here,
he wants to drop off
i'd masked up when he came closer,
i show the wrist things, not sure
if wanted me to carry?
but i shouldn't / can't
doctor's orders or so...

I'm not carrying bags,
a thing of food to put in the cart,

but he's doing pennance, not even sure how to spell it,
it's a religious thing,
penalty box, do an act of contrition,
or somesuch,
I'd studied PhiloSophy of Religion,
for Dog's sake,
Kierkegaard and Nietzsche
(sp?)
one a proper and the hotehr a
tertiary sypphylis victim
from the war,
Existential, God is Dead,
later used bty Nazi's for UberMensch (sp?)
SuperMan, and the Ayrian Master Race
or somesuch, still how many likely see
Germany, Hitler and SS, Concentration Camps
and extermination of the Jews,
Porgrams ? slums, and Ghettos
where people were concentrated,
and not allowed to leave,
likely shippped off to death camps from there,
those that they could,
see the HauloCaust (sp?) Museum
to learn more, start with spelling it right,
finding it, not that difficult walk by it
near Lincoln Memorial? i395 bridge,
across the river from the Pentagon
tidal bason and paddle boating,
Japanese donated Cherry Blossoms,

and over to USDA
the US Mint building, printing/ storing
something about money,
they do/ did tours, iirc,
but one i don't think i've done...

So girl gets in trouble?
the daughter, i guess
mouths off in class
it's the European way,
for some value of European
and other IT'S
likely prudish definitions of what
one does with a Gig of Data Plan
previously mentioned,
or some such complaints
AntiCatholic morals, and mush
condemn those who practice other, or don't
practice any religion(s),
sure i've got my faults,
most do, nobodys' perfect, right?
including typing while told not to,
it's therapy, i have to,
get that nastiness out of me,
so i can sleep,
might help others,
kind of a moral, drivel purge,
of recent events,

you see, he's seen me at Lidl,
notices the bag on the trailer, something
falling off, and ski jacket,
i'm a fashion nighmare,
kids will make fun of me for wearing
a ski jacket while not skiing (sp?)
some might say,
at least i have been skiing,
other retort,

So she may have been defending me,
or anti prudeness, American or otherwise,
we are rejects of Europe some might say,
can't stay there,
and took on slaves, captured others,
for a labor force, building a nation,
or somesuch
obviously the South has more to RePent
than most, and/or the West for
the road/rail built by Chinese?
How about Irish and problems there?
any other ethnic minorities?

Polish? my GF2 2as polish and nice
she gave me food her grandmother would
send care packages,
and she freely shared them,
cooking for me too,
we got into lasagna, both liking
Garfield,
but somehow on Coop time that fell apart,
acutally before that, the summer
and the table saw cut of thumb,
distracted by girl in the shop
and down, not paying attention,
too kewl to use a push stick
and amazing how much flesh and bone
a table saw goes through
i'm on the injured list,
others keep going,
and they get me to say,
I Bite My Thumb at You
ShakesPeare on Stage
still fighting the battle between
the schools when the 2nd Year is to be completed
at the Main Campus, for everyone there,
school teachers, facility suffers,
the pool had closed, not much i can do there,
was swimming but that shut down,
certainly no sports scholarship there,
and some other things...

But I'll save that for later,
maybe...

Never did figure out the seized engine
reason, didn't even lend it to sibling
when she had a problem at school...

Not a list of regrets, but kinda as well,
clear thy conscience, some time before i die,
some think religion, 12Step likely uses it too,
A Moral Inventory,
Making Direct Amends
Steps 4
9
Continued to take a Personal Inventory
and when we were wrong promptly admitted it,

about that compressed FrontPage?
I'm Stalked, i had uploaded and checked,
so it's someone else doing it,
and TeleCom law is international,
those wires go everywhere,
and monitored by lots,
not just locally,
and WiFi signal flakey,
so likely figuring it out,
claiming senior prank won't get out
out of much trouble,

BookMarked pages, and See Recent Changes,
on the bottom right,
FrontPage first isn't the only way to read
a newsPaper

Ovwrt key
and got to end
getting annoying,
need to shower
and upload 800+ photos
mostly screen saves of games
boring non networked ones,
but somehow
DropTheNumbers2022
to add to Games2022
when/ if get back online
can't type much in the cold,
bitter cold an gloved,
much less wrist brace(s)

not that different than what i'd wear to protect
myself if riding, but not a hard case/
protecting, gets sweaty walking
riding/ exercising,
and can control things ok? idk
not tried,
but helmet wearing, bunny ears protection
against my head,
ears bleeding from tight old mask?

So apply for FoodStamps
nasty questions at the end,
Are you a registered Sex Offender?
Odd multipart questions
No I'm not Double Dipping
feels like i'm being accused of something
the poor are criminals,
must be if they were OK they's be rich, No?

she saves asking about balances
of SNiT/SNoT until the next person in line
shows up another nasty
who doesn't get to
the 10 minute bell had been rung,
blondie came in and announced it,
but then let someone else in?
who's listening to parts of my personal info,
sent in by the stalking smoking guy
maybe the Worker who got fired the other FriDay?
he's not allowed to be around me,
end of shift, some other things,
hanging out where i normally do,
but somehow got there before me?
because i'm pacing, sore,
shoulder and back, from pulling cart like horse/ox...)

And someone(s) been listening in,
i'm trying to explain SNTs
and why it doesn't count,
so don't put it on she says,
no, i have to say it,
and they have to determine it doesn't count,
not that different than trying to explain
why i need a receipt for somethign i ahven't even bought
to get details, something for writing a request
disbursement, etc...)

and gets in to all the housing problems,
somehow someone i'd seen year(s) previous
i'd asked her standing at the door, masked,
think it's her but not sure, so use her name S.
and she's filling it out,
at least some familiarity with me,
I remember some problems with her,
attitude in charge, i can't suggest turning the desk,
she knows everything,
large and in charge,
how long's it been since the baby? 5 years,
time flies when having fun,
or sleep deprivation
she's having a lot mroe fun than i,
most (paid & volunteer) staff are...
but part of the problem,
not solution,

goes long, i give complete story/
problem, and it takes forever,
not therapeutic,
she's judgmental,
i can't put that in,
i can't show that to the Tortuous CoWorker,
(PersonalTortureChamber or similar page name)
but fired if you don't
why did we just do all that?
and the nasty next woman coming in late,
not getting service, it's the old lwhite guy's fault,
taking too long, or discrimination, all white
workers, and a customer,
somehow told to accuse bias,
the problem with staff/stuff,
and inspectors/land/slumlord,
trying to get his job back?
by leading people to copy cat type accusations?

and Not submitting is a crime,
excluding people from competing services,
fair access to subsidies/ benefits, etc...

Seems like they are privitzing the food industry,
i guess if AmaZonVille Wants it,
if they take SNAP and deliver,
not to mention Lidl headQuartered in Arlington
maybe time, according to the flyer im under the
maximum income for a 1 person household,
so should/ might qualify,
but expenses? some other things,
in the calculations,
paying for internet
medical expensies, i pay 20% copay?
idk, turns out it's likely not an individual
thing, the road is being improved,
not a house work, probably explains why
so many standing around
4 road workers,
waiting on a truck
and a union thing?
are they paying the bill?
following around / stalking?
harassing/ and got caught?

they target my sibling
who may have been there listening/
held hostage? idk, seems like it
people do time as well as money/goods
at the Hell Hole or whatever tehy call the
WareHouse
doors were closed/ loading dock,
people donate because of me,
some day,
glad to see an old white guy getting food,
i guess it make them seem more relatable,
it could be me, that feeling that we are only
a paycheck or two away from the
Depression Era BreadLines
as well...

And a RePublilcan got sworn in over the WeekEnd,
Gestapo!
WarningWillRoBinSon
Big changes, BigEgos, BigMoney
and other potentially fatal things likely happening,
even masks, don't thave to war those,
it's a parent's choice?

Other rich people only views likely ahead,

Public school was good enough for my family,
though i got away to private small college,
and look how that worked out?
Dad would pay for 2 Years Private
or 4 Years Public and i could have a car,
but i wanted the hell away from my family of origin,
and some problems in breaking away/
getting out, etc...

But i Digress,
asked a girl to prom,
but she went to the Country Club,
invited me there, but didn't know how to respond,
not sure i'd feel compfortable there,
like the previous Governor,
going to the local County Club,
said his first name,
or similar Bob, Robert,
some good people, my dad was a RePublican,
from the country, i guess you'd have to be,
and Lincoln was a RePublican
freed the slaves, but that about
ends there, afaict,
big industry, money, BigPharm,
USDA now not doing GMO on labels,
BioEngineered,
some different marketing
for the same things,
i grew up on Genetic Enginnering corn,
and looked how i turned out...


/Ducks (add emoji some time)

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