20220130CloseOutJanuaryMisc.HP.txt

20220130CloseOutJanuaryMisc.HP.txt


Not sure how to close out a difficult
few months, as getting near the end of January,
year end more definitive

Health
mental, some drivel here
more productive in stress
or prolific, though the quality of stuff,
many just notes and drafts,
take something more seriously,
some inherent qualities of this type of thing
perhaps, as a daily journal,
shared online, with others
originally starting out as an organizational thing
for mental health recovery work group grant application


physical
not walking much
spikey one or couple days walking/ exercising,
running errands for paperwork,
weeks later the Social Security benefits leter showed up
and finally got the
a couple trips on the SNAP application
and a few issues with what is put,
process, etc
perhaps best segmented in
SNAPApplication2022
things left out
gotten wrong
partial submitted?
expidited (sp?)
<150 get a decision in 7 days
application date,
interview
contect methods
not even asked about
trying to get people in trouble
asked balances before someone
and done in front of stranger(s)
leading to a legal problem
used as attack victim
ethnically motivated?
and tortourous
i don't use the term lightly
a pattern of interaction(s)
that shows the hate the organization(s)
and individuals,
Arlington hates it's poor
someone said, and finding that true
while pretending to care,
typical i guess of political
and self image
wouldnt want to consider itself bad
in anyway, and white/black washing
ArlingtonSqueeze2022

flyer says can do both
but uninformed and likely abusive people
say the opposite
typical of the situtions i seem to be in
one says one thing, and others pile on the opposite,
kabal, group think,
and no clear organizational,
some party line, and gang mentality
in housing multiple organiztaion(s)
for profit "management" company
non profit absentee land/SlumLord
protective/ security
curious abusive nosy neighbors,
gang like influences
plus ramdom others...


JamesBearGoodFood2022
partial title of an older cook/lifestyle book
found in a little free library
on an 8+ mile(s) walk
and lead back to by stalking/
child (+other driving?) followers

ironically the book smells,
like chemicals, sprayed?
disinfected and or pest/insecticide(s)?
a bookmark like recipe for sticky buns,
something i do like,
but like a lot of high end stuff,
focus is also on Wine/ etoh
French cuisine despite American
author?
and a huge prudeau (sp?) size guy,
don't trust a skinny chef?

Anthony Bourdain's KitchenConfidential
book i may have reviewed, certainly mentioned
the guy, both high and low cuisine,
before his ultimate demise
by suicide/ drugs/ something,
i'd have to look up official
and can't as DisConnected
but a movie about him, but maybe not
reflective, accurate, like
RobinFlewTheCoup201x
x=_?
high visibility people and what media
may do to people, some thing celebrity
has it's costs, fame a 4LetterWord,
privacy certainly lacking and
a tendency to kill off people at the top
for one reason or another, ratings
and keeping up with the success,
possiblities, and determining
usually after the fact, what had happened,
keeping up appearances
and a front...


Diving deeper to some conflicts,
early on, personal ife is one,
education and career
another...

Historically
Eisenthower College
private small (later closing)
liberal arts school
named after the General and President
who was asked if DemoCrat or RePublican?
replied American
before i guess going RePublican party,
Military, from what i gather,
some how seem above that all
and beside it,
as usually carrying out policy orders
and strategies from others,
in civil service
but as a 5 star during the war(s)
like McAurthor (sp?)
Patten
Sherman?
other(s)?
but flexible enough for civil and political life
many/most are West Point grads,
like the Naval Academy and prosumably other services
AirForce, not see many of those grounded to
a high stress desk job
Coast Guard
Marines
etc

i seem to recall he coined
the term military industrial complex
the sort of eco system(s)
we have today,
started the national highway infrastructure
the interstate(s) system,
10
50?
basically along longitude/latitude lines?
for nuclear, quick evacuation
internet likely part of the electronic
alternatives, moving data, in massive
quantities between likely bombed out cities,
in the scenaries of a nuclear war with
the Soviets/ Russia/USSR
and/or any other(s)...
though the backdrop was Germany & Japan in
WorldWar1-2, afaict...

but the two semester liberal arts school
compared to quarters at purchasing
("main campus")
RIT Rochester Institute of Technology
Brick City, etc
only one of the chasms between the organizations

Selected as a gentle ease into Engineering?
or something different
in hind sight i really don't know why

RIT's Cooperative education,
work study blocks
not really realizing what that would do
with a social ilve/ girlfriend(s)/
getting serious quickly
i.e. live together/  married
working elsewhere means breakup
and there wasn't really an option for me,
interviewed  with / looked at
going on 2 years of engineering
into a 4 year program noramlly
with a year of work interleaved in the last
two year(s)
seemingly a break from study,
financially help pay for school
as father only paying for 2 of private
or 4 of public, and stretching out to 5
with Coop...

anyways, first year, base courses,
many consider eliminating
core courses
math
science
physics
some seemed repetitive
but a 6 credit hour?
World Studies curriculum
for the liberal arts students,
the Engineering students
just filiing in low enrollment
but taught/
tring yo change our career paths
for their busines models/ marketing

JIST
January Intensive Study Term
other options were travel,
not sure i could justify
expensive
no passport (required advanced planning,
costs, process?, etc)
related to what class?
marine biology when studying as a student engineer,
computer/electrical at that?
or Computer Science?

PhiloSophy Of Religion?
intellectual
and two i'd not heard of
Nietzsche and Kierkigaard (sp?)
intensive 100 pages / day readings
mostly incomprehensible
to me,
some how in danger of failing
predictive, reading so many,
guessing on the last,
hadn't read until after the submission/
assignment
or the usual philosophy calling one's bluff,
full of bull, etc?
prostrate to the higher mind?

a beat down of sorts,
the liberal arts school better than the
science techies,
and charter faculty of the liberal arts school
some after/ social party at the faculty house,
i was somehow late and missed a ride to...


drama / theatre
journaling,
Rhetoric 1 and II
English

a waste of time in the minds of Engineering
and Computer Science faculty,
only one professor travelling between the
schools to liason between organization(s)
so Computer Science when had studied
from Knuth and Infinitesimal Calculus
plus Fortran and Assembly classes, 
at the local community college...

They are ruining our engineers,
some decried, thoug hnot sure whom,
at the moment...

Bullying by upperclassmen/women
may have been part of it,
certainly relationships/
a party school environment,
though some more caring than others,
only a few year(s) in age between
but somehow status and hierarchy...


But i digress, that will not be fixed,
concluded, solved,
Existential Pleasures of Engineering
and some difficult times after
possibly related to those issues
and others...

More recently, how to proceed?
this site, and online access,
buying internet connectity
at great expense given two major
providers are debted,
~$200 & $300
5G nationally is slowed down?
or problems there,
requires nearby cell phone towers,
and upgraded to 5G at that,

Continue using free?
developing methods,
word count (wc) checksums,
tampering and towards a readability
and automated processing of the text pages,
into HTML/ WikiFy/ Sectionalize,
and Legacy2017+ processing
even to porting from PBWorks
to locally hosted,
say i got to sail to Europe for
AutScape this year or sometime soon
how would i log/ journal the trip?
with month(s)+ of disconnected time,
and what supports would i have?
how to upload update, given likely not have a
 SVDelos like satellite uplink transmitter/
 receiver on board, and Iridium and other
 system(s) too costly,
 just getting weather forecast down,
 GRIB? files
 PredictWind and other models
 with very small reports maybe possbile
 at great expense?

Video?
What would i take it of?
not myself, not a selfie type person
don't wnat to be in it,
the boat/ sea, sea state,
voice over?
way too Visine ad, put one to sleep,
boring,
music: copyrighted
and YT and others have to buy the rights to use
ComeSail Away,
Styx
Christopher Cross?
all this depends on finding a boat,
a way to pay for it,
and sustainaiblity,
if even interested and possible,
a painful pipe dream otherwise,
preparing for years for something,
planning, and learning
is not able to do,
for many reasons,
ReachingEscapeVelocity
(MicroShip.com book
of computingAcrossAmerica fame)
being more marketing and self promotion
than any skills/ interestins/ abilities,
i might have...


Land based for nomadic life is one thing,
but wilderness and
the C&OCanal tour was a week or so,
SpringBreak2013
Sturgis2013
now 8-9 years ago,
the usual cell phone check in,
with now deceased parent
and other connections...

New Year new problems,
sickness, diarheia
from food, out in the cold,
so much for wifi access,
stress, cleanliness, and
lack of exercise,
and anything else possible,
sounded like someone barfing
lots of coughing and sneezing,
by others and me, someone
experiementing with biolocal weapons,
trying to see who is around,
for other purposes,
pepperspray, sneezing powder
and other agesnts possible,
besides likely soemone getting bad weed,
and the smoke stack like problems of the
area(s)...

So concentrate on what?
Jack of All Trade(s):
writing: this drivel has veried
in consistency, keeping up with a
weekly, daily, or similar pattern?
writing text files is easy,
but connectity spotty to get uploaded
and on the FrontPage,
editing and clarifying in a Diff/Patch
V2+ arrangement not that clear a process,
if it's working, and downloading
back to myself, for backup
and across devices,
found NearBy Share on Android
in gFiles and transering a little
betewen my own SmartPhones
for backup and learning...

photography
(gMaps uploads suspended
WithOut a reliable connection)

or Master of None
which is more likely...
self depreication and mental health
don't go together
that well, many think,
i'm undecided,
humor helps,
but it's not everything...