20220228DrivelEoM.HP.txt

20220228DrivelEoM.HP.txt


So writing or some reasonable facsimilie thereof...

This process, people interviewing writers like to use
such trendy terms, is mucked up...
To say it PC/Politely

So typing on Emacs, not the best for writing,
at least to other people, the kitchen sink of program editors,
so can handle ccccccccomputer languages
but like now repeating characters in Computer
for some reason
while disk going
see processes running?

find
promethious sp?
snapd?
some application process thing for installing
over linux distros...

but eats a lot of space
so disabled, delete SNAP apps?
and recover before end of (next) month,
as need the space to upgrade?

And EndOfMonth stuff, housekeeping,
elecdtronically, for journals and stuff,

Even more troublesome is that the NetWork is Busy,
I can't even make cell phone calls, for help, etc...
Wonder if running billing, or something,
but taking a long time,
short month in February, and the Ukraine and cyber attacks,
maybe possible, and how would i hear?

TV not that great, i'd bought another antenna
for HD TV, from the AirWaves, as it were
but only got 11 stations,
one of which is a DIY Twist?
like screwed in screwdriver, and mechanical,
though some of the UnSellAble
Decked Out
and other things
then ads, were depressing, to say the least,
selling Lawyers for Social Security DisAbility denials,
accidents/ personal injury, etc..;
Old poor people stuff,
and rather predatory at that...

So problems with the power on the TV
as worked once, couldn't get to the brick/
transformer, back in things,
so took from the not working TV
in the living room,
originally i bought 3 of the same things,
some work as monitors, for RPi but two of those
went missing, the latest ones i have/had
with display, so hundreds of dollars of stuff
missing, stolen, from home,
not sure i've paid renter's insurance
and people coming in 
when down, maintenance likely part of the problem,
gang like kids and others likely part too,
but that's another story...

So one antenna gets one set of station(s)
maybe some overlaps, interesting is
PBS
22.*
WETA 26.1 .2 .3 .4 etc
WHUT 32
but the new antenna a Magnavox for $10?
doesn't get those, iirc, and a flat type one
so less options for how to point it,
flat side to the North East?
where are those towers?

V. where are the Cell Towers
and for 5G?
would that make sense to switch from
4GLTE to 5G?
GBlu(es) showing their age,
got a lot of use, but still annoying can't buy
a battery and replace myself,
right to repair/ maintain,
and other things like that,
cheap, i guess has it's price
BoldLikeUs would be supporting such things,
imnsho, but a russian head, so maybe
tyrany runs in the family?
and China, too,
so many things are, and backed up
Bunny Ears somewhere in shipping Hell,
if even get some that light up again,
might be better to make my own?
repair the now one to two year old
pair i have?
coat hanger like wire sticking out,
i guess that popped out some time when
head butt somtehing
ears get bent out of shape,
and some problems remaining up,
as if one base wire not connected
not enough to point up/ and not wanting
a loppy eared bunny thing,
like dogs with ear envy,
some odd behaviors,
and Deer and other things react differently,
maybe seeing ears has something to do with it?

Sniffing butts may be not,
dominance, and some other things...

So been publishing some odd stuff,
well not for me, but some others may think so,
meeting Shares, on Steps, and ReCreations
of shares, some to the point, and belabored,
some more to the point/ on topic,
so why share such personal stuff?
Wny Not?
if the point of some of this Mental Health
personal blog, as the contracting officer
seemed to demean, and not pay,
while taking million(s) some consumer(s)
advocated, and at least one died,
not sure related, but he had finished the job
keeping a legislator from the bathroom,
talking her/ their ear(s) off,
or similar rumor(s)
going back to the capital around SuperBowl
time, that was my visit, right after,
guesss till hung over, or whatever, i was passenger
and plug in replacement, i guess,
advocacy training, and testify/
get money, is how advocacy game sometimes work(s)

Autism self advocacy may be different,
advocate for your own needs, against
discrimination, ableisms, and other
stuff eliteism (sp?) etc,
but not positive i'm that,
just seems to relate
at least on the social stuff...

But season change again,
Shrove MonDay
TuesDay
Mardi Gras,
and religiosity through the roof,
i guess
Shove, may be more like like religion
down your throat, some fill with beer,
and partying, before abstaining on various
things, give up things for Lent,
to show faithfulness, or holiness,
or some such religious things i'm likely not
that qualified, nor care to be,
about, but topical, and timely,
make fun of religion, while spirituality,
might be taken more seriously,
the yoyo type changes,
we had one nice day last week
weather wise, wore shorts,
and sandals, wtih socks,
a formal type thing, we used to say,
dress up was wearing socks,
but some other things too,
change of seasons, the clocks may change
back from daylight savings time,
which is an adjustment,
clocks running out, and other things,
housekeeping/ things to do,
keep a roof over my head,

food in my belly, i could cook something,
maybe, the apartment is cold, not running heat,
wakes me up, dry and other problems,
bills for things, when not wanting to build up
so big a debt, paid $50 x2 last month
(realiy this, as thinking boundary day today)
one demanded or cutoff, and getting text
of if need help paying and deadline(s) for aksing
for help, the EBT has two types of things on some
card processing, a CASH and a Food,
i'm doing food, but wonder what the cash part is,
if i need help,
keeping my stuff, being one, since thigns are missing,
two locks o bought, and can't find, likely stolen
like the RPi3 and 4 + displays
for hundreds,
that needs to stop, espcially if part of the maintenance
and other abuse/exploitation etc problems,

CAFB had other food(s), the produce boxes were not all the same,
some had pineApple, which would have been better
than Beets, and a rotten Sweet Potato in my box,
cucumbers are neither here nor there, for me,
those two i ate,
and cans box again, separate, prepacked, saves on site,
and BankOFAmerica getting publicity for writing a $100k
chekc to CAFB, and likely some people there to get
thanks, more volunteers it seemed than customers,
at least to start, I was there 05xx am,
before dawn, doing internet, and upgdating,
watching sailing video(s),
but too early and missed things,
later may be a different story,
idk, some boxes and even some cans laying around,
the area, and got a photo, maybe of the label(s)
on the boxes, could go dumpster diving
and cut off the labels,
might make sense,
VA DisAster Relief boxes,
before clean up likely soon,
but without a phone working might be dangerous,
if can't call for help, not a dialtone
so neve rconnect, but could be other things too,
might work for emergency?
but if can't connect?
publishing my phone number and now blocked?
related?
harassed that badly?

and other things,
not said,
but need to pee,
i guess my natural limit to FreeWriting,
which ttechnically yhis isn't as spell
checking along the way, self editing
and c ritical, catch it while i can,
instead of maybe edit with a new version
later, finding topics and the flow,
as some people call it,
others don't like it much,
odd spelling and character problems,
typos say something about what is going on,
maybe more technical than freudian,
(sp?) small F
it takes advanced degrees to be really F'ed...
afaict...

The hotel help MDs studying for Psychiatry
qualifying exams, almost pimping/ prostitution,
some really nasty people, pretending to be qualified,
and only one i would have wanted to talk to,
some Muslim and other problem people,
attacking instead of caring,
perhaps Catholic and other fundamentalist
strict, or rigid type religions are the same,
idk, i try avoiding all of them,
but nuts r us, this time of year,
so many different ways to be C,
Catholic, Crazy, other 4LetterCWords,
and Continuity, Community, Caring,
other stuff Contributing,
some of my past may be coming back to haunt
me, i'm not sure why, and what is going on,
some i don't like, some i don't care,
but some may be exploiting my history
for some other reasons,
self interest likely
and anyone claiming to know me,
doing things for me,
is somehow  more suspect,
as selling contact with me,
has been an economy problem of the hood(s),
information is money, one way or another
exploiting others, especially white slavery
type and abduction(s), are risky,
so luring people into the projects,
and taking advantage various ways,
using me, or my story, pity, and
project, pity and rescue is one
of the characteristics some programs
talk about, somehow feeling better about
oneselve, by pretending to care,
Help as a 4LetterWord,
when really Hurt, is more like what the
activity is, truth be told,
afaict, not apply to all cases,
and circumstances, but to many,
as a sick environment, and time(s)
preWar, if that happens, it is far away
and a Capital City, with WorldWar 3?
looming, cyber attacks, shifts in finances,
and hate likely increasing as we get closer
to tax time again, spring being a problem
in more ways than just seasonal allergies,
we may not be done with snow,
and that yoyo good day, bad day,
CrazyMaking by Bach? or similar name
paperback back in the 1980's so might
look it up, but need online or sifting through
boxes to see if it have ti, still and where,
to dos, one of many.. . ToDos,
in camel case,
but hunger, less gelato, getting fat,
700 calories / pint
and $3-4 each, not a lot in EBT money,
but if having to walk there,
and exercise, one of the self lures
to getting ready and out and about,
but i digress...