20220418BunnyDayWeekEnd.v2.G9Pro.HP.txt

20220418BunnyDayWeekEnd.v2.G9Pro.HP.txt

So Easter was this last weekend,
what did someone
 wearing bunny 🐇 ears 🐰 
all year around do?

Mostly hide?
seems like it, after the fact,
but also did my 50 mile commute for the first time
in a long while,
to get 12Step support
in person
and volunteer at TBH
all in one day...

Turns out it's also the 15thAnniversary of the
S H Cho shootings
at VirginiaTech
(TheShortOfIt)
and found out in DC
it's Emancipation Day
freed the slaves, 
as going for bathroom use
at the library and 
not even open...

So looking it up afterwards,
it's not exactly JuneTeenth
and varies by state
 (including DC in that,
 though technically not,
 the District)
in Virginia?
i wasn't there much to know,
didn't check libraries, government buildings,
banks, etc, 
so don't know,
along the trails and roads a lot,
but not much time to stop,
as brakes light to non existent,
and going towards TBH 
so work on there,
but getting there an hour late,
slow going in mid day sun,
and a lot of things to do,
stop at stores (biker reFueling)
arrive to
can i help with this and that?
the stops along the way there,
for breakfast: WholeFoods in Reston,
for something immediately,
Kefir, Peach variety, 
not found much locally,
and looking for a carrot cake/ bar (skinny cake?)
which found a previous trip,
but not in supply
so bread pudding bar size
and a little attitude
 at customer service,
asked if wanted bags, 
turns out paper so no,
 the cooling kefir
using small black Lidl cotton mesh on handlebars 
 (with old inner tube
 as necklace strap 
 for gallon water jug(s)
 and hands free)
and scarf down bread pudding bar
in the parking lot,
waiting on the line of traffic that formed in front of me,
carrying around 
a plastic take out fork knife set, 
reminding myself 
i'd put the kefir 
in the water bottle cage...

Interactions along the way 
with customers
looking baggy 
so obviously on a trip,
but have to say a long commute, and explain,
bunny ears and bike/ wheel chair equivalent
with duffle bag over panniers,
which keep on scraping, 
getting caught in the
spokes/ wheels,
 and took a different way 
of getting there
 along North Shore drive
 (which loops around Lake Anne
  plus mostly residential
  but shops etc by lake),
spinning out/exiting
 to Harris Teeter, 
 and Home Depot,
but need a map to find 
and Wifi
but don't have
 so guessed from years
 of going to Lake Anne,
 but the farmer's market 
and crafts not
started up yet there, 
this year...
The Lake is still there 
with statue of Robert E Smith (RES of RESTon)
on a bench,
 and some new docks/ boardwalk,
ReDone? and a fountain to aerate the water?
Geese, a fisherman, and cat(s) at the vet clinic
Just Cats or whatever the name,
some WiFi at the Community Center,
SSID Guest?
 but not the County's?
somehow monitored/ stalked?
and someone came in, interrupting things
while i was talking / sharing
and likely a drop/ dip down,
SomeOne pointing a camera
 at my face?
 behind laptop mic 🎤🎙️
female voice(s)
 so likely not related,
and/or permitted, technically but not
a brother/ traditional,
only things i can think of
besides the newer higher mileage
contact from liquid soap
fumes/vapors from cleaning
and/or someone

i've usually got a dip/lull
and sharing/ blinding/ also
concentrate on what i'm saying,
but losing track as well,
like a public humiliation and
with VATech and hatred high,
some supports claimed but stalking
more likely pretend/ fake supports
likely too...

FrEnemy and that odd, 
we know you, but do I know them?
like stalk you, 
 hunt may be more like it,
on towards genocide,
eliminate bunny eared bikers,
in a car affluent areas,
city boy, out the trail,
and looking baggy and different,
shelters and people likely reporting along the way,
tired and hungry, baggy 
and not rich,
packed standard layers 
leaving so early,
about a 20 mile ride out,
done it for years, 
then pandemic
and bike(s)/in line mobility aids down,
shortages of parts,
tubes for 26x2.5
switched over to a front tire 26x2.4
and it's likely pressed wrong or something,
the side rubble strips toward the wires where rim contacts
 (tubeless sewn on hole different ball of wax/glue etc
never tried but know exist(s)
on order trying for works with both clinchers & tubular
 don't think got them though
 rim then tire + learning risk
though dual (+ learning) purposes

and warehouse price 
bought as benefit for volunteering
so no returns/ support to speak of
collecting a pile of parts/tires, mostly wrong, 
some indoor track exercise bike very skinny 1" wide green Kendas
and various substitutions better to have things
at wholesale prices, the indoors, thought at the time
to try what something that thin (1" not 2.5") is like
and on sale, but over time,
so many things add up,
to give/ trade try later pile(s)
which is part of the housing problem,
some of which i've shared on,
and keeping private stuff private
when i blog/ journal my life so much,
it's difficult to balance...

Alternatively 
Cheap $15 Lidl bike panniers pair,
very reflective 
but doesn't keep it's shape
 I think there were missing plastic hoops
that weren't there when i bought 2+ sets,
and then more variations later available
 the roll over top
more dry sack, 
and a more regular flap over top,
so have many, 
more safe to leave on short term,
 then $200? Ortliebs
and carrying things like case of soda,
since gallon water
 (up to $0.95?
was $1.21 for 2 with tax
a small math problem for some)
which is in short supply sometimes
closer in at Aldi...
sugar water non fake sugars,
leading to weight gain,
treat self with can of things,
but balance of water to soda
to milk, etc...

Eating my way through the frozen sweets
isle of Lidl and Aldi (someone online created
an ice cream guide to Aldi)
I've been more Gelato at Lidl,
but some larger plastic tubs
strawberry and a mixed berry at Aldi
labeling info in the plastic,
instead of paper over plastic
so if it frosts/ melts not losing
get mushy paper, readable, etc...
so variations on that, to try
and all builds up to many packaging...

Biggest thing is having to move,
likely put in for a move,
then elevator menacing/ ridiculing,
gloating at getting rid of me,
maintenance, i could fire the guys,
some voice i don't even know whom,
maintenance supervisor, or county
and tear up the request/ thing faxed
in and already jumping on the elevator
menacing on the way back,
so conflicting, i don't answer the
harassment, oppression much,
wait and think, not knowing who,
not having a reasonable amount of time
and information to make informed decisions
save the voucher is the main thing
$800 / month is what keeps me afloat/
solvent/ in budget/ plan
in rent help, took 10 years to get
the Section 8/ Voucher,
and had for about 10 years,
and seems others trying to steal it,
claiming i'm not doing my part,
abusive inspector,
AttemptedMurderByInspections2018
or so and
then losing my mother (sequence: vice versa), grief
+some stuff including compressor
ice cream machine
then 
pandemic, stuck in more,
and cascaded/ led / snow balled into other things,
while having to justify/ fight/ explain myself,
to the public/ audience/ readers/
and try and defend myself,
also gets tiring...
Very


But short time, red herrings/ diversions,
distractions, maybe what told verbally is correct,
one sided lease says they can do verbal/ voice/
instead of written, but double standard
of the turn around and do the opposite, without written proof
really 
lying/ good->bad faith, 
and just plain criminal,
discriminating, afaict... 
IANAL, and all too...

So a heavy load, 
and take a weekend off of that,
but can't really with short deadlines,
working on application,
costs $50 + $150 in help from family,
and competition, 
everyone in your/ my stuff
at the photo copying and gossip,
people enjoying my troubles,
guy at the bank,
likely a drive by/ messed with,
bad feelings like accused of something,
or stalked, setup, etc...

Generally not that type of disabled/ crazy,
that's a whole other camp
Depression
SchizoPhrenia
Anxiety DisOrders
Personality DisOrders
the four major categories,
and substance abuse,
intellectual disabilities,
separate silos
and one gets confused between,
oh you're like x,y,z
Beautiful Mind SchizoPhrenia/c
RainMan intellectual / with savant
Temple Grandin Autism, 
another
not much on depression there,
bipolar female professor, forgetting name,
but seen in person a few times,
Kay Jamison UnQuiet Mind
ElectroBoy less well known
and others,
too numerous to mention,
 and
do a shrimp list it all guy
 Tom Hanks played
life is like a box of chocolate
Forrest Gump....
all HollyWood stories, 
though ElectroBoy not a movie?
but cleaner and marketing, and stuff,
the reality is less pleasant,
but something canonical/ archetypes
for Jungians / Freud types to analyze
playing armchair psychiatrists,
when reality is not so nice...

really just lumping & stereotypes to stigma ...

Homelessness has similar,
 names
escaping me, 
a musician comes to mind,
with issues, of course...
but not the name,
 maybe later...

So FreeWriting/ MourningPages,
and recovery too...

Seem to be bumping into Amy R. from
RRWG days going to MerriField Lidl
gets a lunch break
 if i'm in the area,
and some info relayed as the longest
surviving employee of the project
I and others advocated for,
so many years ago,
can't say much about it,
and running out of time/
energy, burned on many ends this
weekend and coming up 
 even more
DeadLines...

So SunDay after working on my own
bike after Clinic in PetWorth,
just getting there was work/ effort enough,
staffing volunteer only clinics, lots of new are stepping
up, had an online class/ training, which i missed,
New Volunteers, only offered once/twice a year,
people moving and floating in and out of the DC
area, Pandemic effects, and seems Ace Hardware
changing from ownership/ Annies' to
someone else, to employee owned,
t shirts i notice hadn't talked with staff,
much to know, but 3 of 6 frozen Lidl mango 🥭 cream bars
disappeared quickly in the beginning
not enough for everyone, a second box?
late arrival, about the time people getting lulled,
an hour in, setup and early arrival, hosting,
greeting, lead mechanic/ floater, all the roles
among others taught/ trained on,
shadowing and a bunch of new people
the milieu safe space and other things
to learn, teach, practice, preach, drone on about,
i'm not a good example of it,
but know from years of being around,
privacy of guests, some want attention/
to be written up 
(like
9/11TheDayWithOutWater or similar),
many instances of archetypes there too,
i got into a few different
playing social butterfly, ironically,
some easy stuff, but I'm not the expert,
though had things that might help,
look at Park Tools videos,
for crank puller,
i don't do it often,
and not touching things
still eating,
had after the popsicle stick,
ReUsed that as a fork, slow eating
discounted Macaroni Salad,
shoveling/ spooning, thinking myself clever for ReUse
slowing things down and keeping my too talkative
mouth busy, but likely bothering others too busy
to eat, they may not have had the hours commuting
before and missed meals as pedaling during those times...

and then the two melted/ milkshake like ones
i finished later,
a lull myself, and off to the bathroom
at the library,
over to Yes! organic market
see if the PetWorth Farmer's Market is open,
i missed it, not seen,
so may not be started yet,
 but soon,
hopefully...

Though a rushed story of the weekend,
lacking many sequencing build up, after the fact,
and poorly told,
bought stuff at Yes, frozen orange 🍊 juice
not concentrate, and a banana 🍌 bean pie
annoying people, maybe loops around looking
for a public restroom, none found/ seen
had to ask at checkout, nope...
and the kid in the stroller, i'm trying to show
the bunny 🐇🐰 ears lighting up as well as checking out,
at the register woman, asking / telling stuff,
the kid thinks i'm questionable/ not sure/
don't like, i'm 40+ miles into a first
long one of the seasons 50 mile day,
so not seeming very presentable,
and a reprise of homelessness on the horizon(s),
trying to get volunteering time in,
so pack up and keep going,
cashier/ staff suggested Wendy's
as use bathroom there,
blocks away,
more to buy, i guess,
didn't try, kept going and SafeWay store,
had been as far as CVS before,
but luckily not that far,
what they have
gallon Cold water $1-2?,
share with others fill their water bottles,
grab another separate liter like,
found carrot cake square slice of sheet cake $2-3?,
and some other things,
but heavy, tired, mid day,
and getting expensive,
SNAP EBT as a federal program
the Virginia card works in DC too,
which has helped get myself treats,
for going out and exercising,
skipped the Ace Hardware large
interesting Root Beer, Birch Beer,
Sarsaparilla, cream soda, etc
collection
bringing my own,
from Lidl and other places,
so sugared up, ate and feeling it,
needed A/C even below 80F
in the mid day sun, full set from
0900a+ doing the trail back,
didn't bail, but not sure about later,
DC back to Virginia,
ended up stopping and fixing my own
brakes, leaning over bike/ down a problem,
rubbing and bag water remaining gallon bottle, use old inner tubes
as bungee cords/straps,
temperature makes a difference on the rubber
bandish qualities (elasticity) of the substitute cords,
so slips off the end of rack,
shifting and edge of bag
into spokes, filling expanding helps and closing
and found proper older hooked bungees
in my bag, collected and part new
bought set from a while ago,
to jury rig a solution, annoying even
myself having to stop and adjust so often,
(like checking my ass?)
and brakes getting further a safety issues,
all the way down levers 
and slow to stop,
big hills going down to the river,
walked some, for safety, and
Fred Flintstone stops others,
but returning finally found time  a set of stairs
outside a Homeless coalition office
in a welcoming church not far from Dupont off Florida?
i'd visited Jesse old Vendor Manager now deceased
and bought a t shirt, 
donkey and elephant,
not sure where that is, maybe another thing
lost/ stolen over time, an advocacy
statement to say the least,
Help the Homeless walk long sleeve t shirts
from 2001 on, frayed and looking their age,
and what a return to living it,
instead of just writing it would bring?
death? as feared?
retaliation/ finally getting one upmanship?
and having worked on the other side?
many may have been angered,
perceived slights/ retaliation(s)
besides the usuals,
idk, don't even remember many people
customers/ clients so long ago,
much less those i was in with,
decade(s) ago, people change appearance
over those time frames,
graying hairs, balding, if even still alive
so many of the authors/ vendors & others (TheMagicOfDarlaYYYY ) may have
been lost, keeping up with from StreetSense,
I never did get the equivalent started in Virginia,
the paper crossed the border some,
but not nearly enough, for a Virginia
version, afaict...

One of the things i was trying to do,
dropping off some older issues at Lamb Center,
pre 9/11 anniversary, MetroAccess overflow
taxi ride into just before my RRWG meetings,
and ran over my feet as i was getting my
bags out of the back seat of the cab,
near PerformanceBikes before they redid the shopping
center there... Driver change? and wouldn't
call for help/ ambulance i had to do that,
and then said i hadn't paid,
my part i did, driver change, likely,
and didn't get me there safely i'm supposed to pay for
being run over, WTF?
The cross county South to mid,
and other problems, pre crash killing General Officer's
family or similar, wish i'd made more of a fuss/
litigation, even answering call from a lawyer
at the time, required getting up,
on bad feet, and then a previously scheduled repeat trip the next
day, from the same cab company
harassing at the door,
when calling dispatch, thought funny
ran over feet, haha...
like done on purpose/ happens regularly,
etc...

But i digress, taking StreetSense to Lamb Center,
turns out in FairFax City, so police 912 ambulance dispatching problems,
and then going to get records/ police report,
ambulance and ER visit charges, bills piling up,
etc...

All not that different than a police report
of being hit on a bicycle in Capital Hill,
police report said a Huffy bike low department store,
insulting difference to bike geeks/snobs,
not Gary Fisher (mountain bike designer/inventor), and messed up taco's front wheel
and questionable? RockShock (sp?) fork,
at least reported to WABA crash database, iirc...

building the dynohub (sp? o->a) wheel what was in service
for 10? years, until recently, wholesale
disc wheels (sets), etc...

But getting tired, and more to do today than just
this drivel, Harvey the invisible biker bunny hid
mostly this weekend, especially SunDay,
getting online and getting Ubuntu booting again,
Developmental version took a day of trying
but luckily a closed center for Easter,
so WiFi while not always connecting,
had to go into Windows to do that agree/accept
connection, and then over to Linux,
in whatever developmental inconsistent
package state, broken/ missing,
not completing apt check
update/upgrade,
download an ISO of Beta image
a newer SugarOnAStick Fedora Live,
and updating M$ Windows i'd not been in much
since getting originally in 2018,
updating FireFox, LibreOffice
and the Windows stuff too,
took all day,
finally adding
apt install lxde
apt install mate
in root terminal mode from rescue grub boot
both desktop environments,
try getting past the Gnome DisPlay Manager
GodDamn i'm calling it bug,
or whatever, not sure what it was,
but back and forth,
while someone claiming gave a virus
others stalking on the trip out to Reston,
and Back to DC, suggestions/ directing/
bossy/ nosy, pretend helping when didn't
ask, as they say, in some rooms 'unsolicited advice
is abuse', i'd done a little like that,
but considered it safety to get people
to sign in to TBH clinic, for liability
know the risks, and first in the order
of things talking what they need
and get who it is, and assumption of risk(s),
drop tools on feet, hands get (k)nicked,
how to keep clean, and contact if virus,
or other things, mostly forget/lose something on site,


i'd noticed a bad pedal on the way back,
broken right one, not sure if bike fell,
a few layered by the door and work areas,
getting in and out of bags,
or someone replaced/ took mine,
thinking i had bought several from warehouse,
not stocked in the store, low money, etc...

Closing up TBH clinic a Gallon of water
for others, one guy didn't have a water bottle
the bag piping edge was rejected,
i wasn't giving the second bottle
ended up a chugging pour into mouth from above
feed the bird, but worked,
if not breathing and talking about when to stop 🛑,
seemed to have done it before,
and ok giving water,
seems cruel not to have access to water and bathroom,
what i got it for besides myself,

up the hill,
unsolicited biker advice through P Street
another small bike shop there, and i'm looking badly
something about proper fitting and they get a lot of people
from us? 
some rivalry/ goading/ harassment, or advice giving,
bikers generally help each other,
but i didn't respond, 
like a lot of things...

Finally getting home,
brakes a little uneven,
ned to use/carry a third & fourth (cable puller) hand tool,
and how to keep the brake pads from tilting
when tightening the old Gary Fisher
cantilever (i->e?) brakes,

finally home
and the banana bean pie interesting
fin and unpack, rinse, macaroni salad container,
put away ciabatta (Italian for small slipper 🥿? though someone vehemently disagrees)
bread 🍞 loaf and bagel🥯 s, freeze,
$1 small creamy peanut 🥜 butter 🧈 jar,
and have food(s), not sure how that's
going to work out supplies saved for sailing trip
and bail to hotel from here, if have to go,
likely how it goes, today and other starting
the what took months long transition when had
a place to move to before,
still in limbo so many ways....
(last one was a self move/transfer) 

Collapse/ down like many other trips,
finally get to my home/ bed
and need to stop, crash,
A/C and all the other spoiled necessities
many take for granted, when touring
traveling, vacationing, despite HikerBikerCampSites
and other free options, it has it's cost(s)
laundry, wet, damp,
and those vacay type things are done voluntarily,
afaict, for a change / break from routine,
this something different,
_PutinOnThePike,
and other invasions, degradation(s)...

Does it create a crisis
especially involving services,
which aren't trauma aware,
having been before,
threatening again, is terror like,
so others don't have to worry?
and absolve themselves of their part in things,
blame shiftings and finger pointing
especially if things go wrong/badly?
He's done it before,
much younger, first time, unknown,
different economy,
now chronic, recurring,
post labeled: SSDI, 
& Benes + SNAP/EBT,
so somehow makes ok 
to do to again?
it's a blame shifting,
he's like that
 and a shaming
victim bashing, etc...
imnsho


More will be revealed,
as they say in 12Step program jargon,
but a back step/set back 🔙,
recovery is not a linear progression,
while conflicting addictions/ codependency/
a progressive fatal disease,
associated with alcoholics (AlaNotCon _Training Shares Steps etc),
 food, money, codependence,
clutter/hoarding/ etc...

The balance between seems a tight rope
walk, not circus death defying trapeze
act, but reality in it many forms...

And SunDay someone shows up headlights in my face
again, do you work here?
Hours by the entrance in garage,
closed building and somehow suspect,
take a photo of car lights in my face
left one, not turned off, all the empty
spaces and have to park in the ones i'm
a road kill run over victim again?

That someone(s) stopped,
leave him alone!
etc...

Bunny 🐰🐇 Hunting likely,
and yet another attempt on me,
one of many it seems over the weekend,
in it's many forms,
and that's without a kid asking so many
questions, seems need a hug,
and i'm not a hugger,
later calming with a POD song lyric,
maybe the kid needed a hug
forget the song and artist title proper... but mentioned them before
in case read some other pages/
drivel...

Available Times up,
off to other things...
Ding/ bell?
Horn/ Whistle
like bike use
for start 12Step meeting time,
but not...
Or clowning farting like sound horns...

and yeah, i should brush my teeth
and i'll be cold,
 but carrying a jacket,
can go back in if get cold,
took maybe half an hour
and had a place to do that...

Had plans/ idear of a bunny puzzle
gifting a gelato container with
ReUsing left out eggs (DishWashed),
a number for a unique user / kid number,
parental permission/ write a page here,
and collect information,
sharing and putting out a task,
overflow packaging,
and some rewards for doing so,
entry and label learning,
sugar antidote,
but fell through without energy
and doing other things...
mainly burning off last week
and what's ahead..


N.B. This mornings mango 🥭 cream popsicle
(near fin box, try CocoNut 🥥? next?)
to cool off and oatmeal to finish
bag may have fueled the run on
and on and on (GoGo? but not upbeat?)
writing style...