20220501MayDay.HP.txt

20220501MayDay.HP.txt

So just went to the holel and collapsed

was stuck out of my apartment so many times,
seemingly deliberarely, 3 guys and a sibling
in a one bedroom apartment,
most likely upset with me,
got to be towards 1500p when checkin starts
and was just left oustide, they had my key(s)
not supposed to do that according to lease,
but landlord/SlumLords doing nasty things like
not giving a set, lock out elevator(s)
for moving, they were doing it for people
who didn't like me, so they had Exclusive Use,
or whatever, but not for me, an original
resident, until a chain of Community Managers,
first was the same that threatened to poison me
at the company picnic, from the old place,
a LatinX Senior Manager,
The next a nsstier little LatinX woman,
with a napolean complex or something
bed bugs, and poisoned, throwing a pill in my mouth,
pregnant the's not scared of poisons,
but then had a problem with the baby,
previous landlord did too, maybe something
with doctors, and how people are and aren't cared
for in delivers, trained on exposre to stuff,
Gang and other related retaliation(s)
or other such gossip,
Probably getting the numbers off somehow,
going backwards, a black man, Muslim,
and self congratulatory, looking for high reviews
of himself and the org on sical media,
while trying to get rid of me,
I don't even post there,
have 16Million views of other stuff,
but keeping person life private, and didn't,
most places don't have user pictures of what it's
really like, the glossy photos provided by corporate,
like the ArlintonMill Community Center,
glowing review of people like Realators (sp? tm elsehwere)
but not a lot of reality, the fairs/ multicultural dances,
but not the overnight and early morning stuff,
screaming in the back, someone being raped? again?
thrown over into transformers,
stalked, harassed?

But i'm in a hotel, costs over $100/ night
before taxes and fees, and got wifi back,
like the hotel/ hospitality, short stay management
styles people seem, to think we were,
so why not have some of the benefits of it,
and had suggested WiringPublicHousing
and someone got DarkFibre put to use,
but 4 years in that WiFi BackBone,
Pandemic hit and didn't live up as well,
my Zoom meetings were a problem, latency
on WiFi competition for bandwidth, with kids
fragging stuff, or other game playing,
school assignments, and other issues...

But i'm a little ahead of myself,
yesterday was not a graceful exit,
i left keys with sibling and needed to get away,
where i could rest, too many days without,
combinations and access, and gave all that way,
signed stuff without looking,
did quikc price omparisons on more storage,
and then totals most of my income,
did i leave enough to live, and that's after
the $5k extortion/ Help? / Services
i'd asked my dead mother's designated organization
for, but cost overruns, and how that's going to work out,
or not, will see, all pretty much done on credit,
a quick move out, and try and save the boucher,
and the security deposit,
you see, i may have caused more damage than i know
and signed things that there wasn't damage,
as didn't know, normal wear and tear,
i'd consider it, without any repairs done
to speak of, maintenance wouldn't...
I tried to and broke the lamp shade,
others just fell, change a bulb or some
that can figure out opening on high ceilings (sp?)
and things happen...
Wire rack shelving and that fell out of the wall,
some curve of the building, settling,
or something cracks on the walls,
and the good ship Titanic may be going down,
you see it's MayDay, when things like that happen,
but Full Speed Ahead, Damn the Torpedos,
and all that jazz...

So things remain, residuals of problems,
i escaped for a bit, but have to go back,
about midnight someone knocked,
and other noises at the hotel,
seemed like bugs in the hotel too,
bed bugs? My first time in years,
3 maybe since laying flat, don't have
even a portable hammock with me, could
really use the extra space for stuff,
where's it going to go?

What's left behind beyond what
"Professionals" do is, things like the necessary
cables and parts to make things work,
the hockey pucks, sliders for furnitures,
the wing back chair has a spikey leg in the back,
somehow the wood was broken, and it's still
useable, showing it's age, i used to put a sheet
on it, and a towel coming in from biking
and eventually just camp chairs, one set
i went though already, broke it and scissored
myself inside, luckikly not seriously hurt,
but that i sacreficed (sp? e i?)
to throw things away was enjoyable for sibling
and arguments were going to heppen,
so give away even more control,
and see what happens?

I can only be out so long without sleep,
most i guess are like that,
and being forced away,
and they took lunch i hear,
i'm not really in charge of anything
and it's my space, my stuff,
and sort of my money,
through some other(s),
fiscal agent/ for my best interest(s),
you see i could easily die doing things
like that, taking my stuff,
organizationally crushing people,
like between ships in the night,
change or guard, or similar,
we little people, the ones supposedly it's all for,
and we don't really matter, it seems,
county doesn't care, about me, my things,
my welfare, besides making money?

What is the prupose one says have another day,
they aren't going to do anything over the weekend,
happens the first is today,
nasty writings say everything left there is
then owned by them, not resigning / renewing
the lease, and if not there, becomes theirs,
but berbally told sibling one thing,
and likely did another,

Memory goes, remembering combinations,
and passwords, and stuff,
so getting in, even with paid help,
and get it done, that seems to be a problem,
besides breakage and hiding sabotaging things,
perhaps part of the fun, howrs with other people's
stuff, and like little kids they can't pick up
after themselves, goes both ways,
big profesional people $100/hour
many hour gig, and can't finish on time,
can't estimate how much space is going to be needed
another 10x10? or more?
can't say, what happened to professionalism?

And taking every thing i need(ed)?
Socks, towel, clothes, all gone,
i guess they thought i had packed for a trip,
what kind of trip does a poor disabled person
get to go on?
Hospital?
PsychWard?
Something provided by Real People?
Even eating out,
pizza, and other things,
you see so much food was being thrown away,
it might have bugs?
why is that plsatic bag hanging out of the
cabinet door?
To prevent bugs, i'd imagine, if they don't get
into the flours, when baking bread more,
and when doing pancakes and other things,
all i had was ice creams, portale ones,
and all those cans, some as old as 2015
I'm told, i picked up a Tuna Salad,
was so last year, and ate that,
grabbed a soda can, from the crisper
drawer, and that was about all i had
to eat, thought it might pick me up a bit,
during the times i wasn't sleeping in the
entrance way, staggering at the Community Center,
he's going to fall down, better turf him,
can't do that here, we have reputations,
appreances, unsightly, better be elsewhere,
and police no where to be seen, sure
leave a vehicle, but what of that?
Look the other way as the titanic goes down?
Wasn't any of my business,
SOS? MayDAy?
Personal belongings, raped wallet?
that doesn't matter?
Don't Care,
not important, calls for service
at places of low rent, and/or subsidzed
may not get answered,
and one of the last things,
woman who props door,
i'd let soemone in the lobby,
seemed nice enough,
she knocked, i was sleeping / laying down
on the flat bench, only one like it around,
too short benches outside, so many bus waiting people,
but not way to sit, and englosures,

I
m having problems, my skin is red,
i'e allergic, sun burned, mid day,
my lip has cracked? or a cold sore?
something sickly looking
exposure, wind burn riding just above
freezing, and in shorts, as can't find my lcothes,
were set aside but can't be found now,
and how much of that suff is actually packed?
nice and neatly where i can't get to it,
the fob gets held hostage,
and they go take a union like break,
leaving me outside even more,
some cruelty it seems,
like the mattress that is evidence,
poisoning and a little green month lab
work what poison did i get a hand full of?
what does that stuff do to people?
animals, the envionrment, you know
more important stuff, like oil and gas
leaks on the Titanic?
Human lives sure are more important,
there are safety nets? boats? no?
Not for you... Nor day in court,
just move along buddy, not really a buddy,
unless you consider the paitronizing part,
have to keep an eye on you,
can hear everything you do,
and the place smells,
bugs i seem to be waking up to,
and some hazing type thing going on,
relax it's just a fly,
not a bed bug,
and somehow still alive,
but what all have i lost,
i don't have the key(s),
its rainy today, and can i go find out?
No, others are asleep,
i was then, and cross schedules,
9-5 really a little before and after
"Professionals" and some other amateur
help hasn't happened, so more at risk,
ramps and keys, and other things,
leave your stuff and people steal it,
things go missing and dmaages, they don't
mean what they say, they mean the opposite,
close enough, goy your personal effects,
women and children off first,
better to have someone cute young and female
than an old guy who was there from the beginning,
got to dominate, like pre World War?
Titanic goes down with all the rich people,
might be like 9/11 attacks, idk,
not a history buff, but something
about May April Showers,
but MayDAy, a Red Revolution,
Tieenamin (sp?) Square,
and busting open a story,
how it goes, if anyone cares,
I haven't eaten, much but snack,
and sugar, and down, jittery on ice cream,
and other things, can't go out, nothing 24h,
and far away, so a bad choice?

Pretend to be a trust fund brat,
Dylan on 90210? Back in the Day?
Hotel wuite as home, no laundry to do,
only get concierage to do it for me,
but somethings i have to do for myself,
or lose stuff, they play winner take all,
and black power, or whatever,
someone(s) think they are the winner(s),
got your space? gloating and
they may not like me?
developer or hatchet guy?
renting to a woman? interest in her?
going to his wedding?
friends of the ones complaining
so much about me?
offering soda to children?
really the parent, as the kid had asked,
nothing for the kids, unlike the
teddy bear give away of another move,
post Day Treatment, mom showed up with another
bear, Bears Bears everywhere an older book
can't seem to find, line drawing and where all
they at/
 Blackbears? White Bears?
 Brown mean bears?
 TEddy BEars?

Idk, but doesn't really matter anymore,
the past is the past, and the present
is all i got, future uncertain,
under represented , if represented at all,
crisis averted but really collataeral damage,
relationships strained, went down
and others worked on it without me,
gave control and did what they wanted
at great expense,
i guess what business and greed is all about,
but finishing on time, instead of dumping
back on customers, pack everyghing?
sort low  grade to high grade, leave
low grade to the end, but actually finish
a job, not take a break while locking out
the customer, and  then come back,
we can't do, so sorry, not gone,
well, guess you don't get paid,
sinking ships and how trying to save
one lose another,
like drowning and lifeguards,
idk, it's a red state/ problem now,
money and politics,
who knows above my pay grade
that's for the young, right?

You got what you wanted,
now is it really whata you wanted
or on to other ocnquests?
Demaining others?
and has it's costs, no?