From: Jerry
To: COS committee et. al.
Date: 20080118 8.47 am
Subject: consumer operated services committee RESCHEDULED FOR FRIDAY 10:30 AM
without adequate notice, spent 3 hours waiting for transportation
after the COS last meeting on friday and had my agenda additions
ignored (need minutes of the previous meeting, plus more background
on the panel/jury 'candidates' and not time to absorb the other volumous
information with commuting and other commitments),
plus my experience with the last general RRWG meeting
(as the county contracting agent (Lori Bell) who came into CWC before
Thanksgiving saying 'your not going to like this' and not paying the verbally agreed upon $2k
for 5+ months of trying to make it happen when she wouldn't show up,
having Dianne present an award to the women who complainedo on the
few occasions of a 2 hour car commute home whne I was doing that regularly
by bus and bike. Lori called it 'blogging' on NoVAPeers.pbwiki.com)
has taken a lot out of me, besides my usual tired, manipulated, expoited,
toyed with and abused feelings in dealing with this system,
in addition to the neighbor that regularly showers at 4.30 am,
(the middle of my sleep cycle)...
i had suggested COS next week, but that is not heard either.
so the feeling of wasting my time is very strong right now,
(though perhaps it's just exhaustion),
and i don't have the flexibility to change transportation as
quickly as those [weathly?] drivers that are (supposedly) reimbursed,
nor do i have the kind of cash to shell out $50 in cab fare (one way)
to get to $25 meetings, and spend O'Brien and Snow
memorial money that way, nor think that cabs show up in my
SE corner of the county (read 'long island') without a corporate
account (add snow mess and all) and to try to make a connection
to the next steering committee meeting.
so I'm probably going to have to miss
the crucial meeting because it was changed on me,
and what i say doesn't matter anyway.
philosophically, after considering the panel like a jury and wondering
about diane's comment of 'any consumer', thinking on the
conflicts of naming people we already know to review things we
might be proposing, i'm wondering about just an open
court panel of our peers, 'john q consumers' who might
be presented the proposals and wonder what they would do for them,
instead of the blue ribbon 'experts' panel
approach. but this email is probably too
late, and no one seems to care what i say nor
do for the last two years because there is money
now and let's have consumers fight over very little money,
'lynching style' for providers enjoyment...
after going to the state house with ray looking for COS funding
three years ago on short notice and after two years of doing
stuff like this and to have the hundreds of hours
website presented by someone who's never been to a meeting,
i'm feeling like quitting and given the last general RRWG meeting
that people would enjoy that...
phil i seem to recall first meeting you when you
were briefly RRWG treasurer upstairs in the institute hallway
out side the soda machines, after you had showed
up at the steering committee meeting when i couldn't
and saying i wanted/needed to be paid,
but that has not happened in the last year and
given that Russell/executing committee
thinks we are worth $8/ hour 'being paid for our expertise'
as presented by Russell to the last steering committee,
by Diane and others enjoying having him replace me
without any experience with these services, nor worked
for years to create such position(s) and
how we are treated here in this area
(read things like this and putting up a green
projector screen and a rooom full of providers
laughing about St Patricks Day following Patricks
(born on St. Patricks day) death
and laughing about not looking back
(i.e. not paying for the last year's work and replacing
the wiki with 'Network of Care' after failing to fund the website
activities for a year). at the second Regional IT meeting, maybe
we should move that Russell's salary is now $8/
hour and fire James Thur for such abuse?
A place for feedback on the page presented
20090118 Jerry