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While i normally don't delve into feelings,
it's the F Word, for many, myself included,
some interaction, observations as the holidays
converge on a deadline, so to speak...
A few instances in my travels,
walking, maybe 5 miles, i've not yet
done the download of the walk from
but maybe 4 as 3+ at least by previous,
and 10 seems too much, will see...
Elevator, kid face down into a device
mom pulls something out of the kids
hair, maybe indicating look up,
as most kids have their faces in devices,
I ask boy or girl,
point out that He might want his own device,
and they seem to get to that conclusion,
after an I hate you, I'm going to Get You,
explosion, his game had disconnected
probably faraday cage and other stuff blocking
signal, WiFi and Cell id different,
so jumping from place to place,
WiFi here, there, and then work on plan time,
see what useage is like, signal and where can
connect, but home would be the best,
so calling to get one back,
school, and some other places have/
be safe places, and some have family plans,
and what to do with mom/s old phone,
hand me down, but still on mom's bill,
which if done with chores, allowance,
good grades, etc, might work out
and be a motivator,
possibly to look up and interact with people,
talk for the brief ride, express things,
I want, can i have, what about,
and negotiate, maybe difficult to do
when hormones, etc start, and the
seasonal and other pressures, mom worries
about bills, etc, and well, want to talk to
him/her, before genetically surgically implanted
(twee/teen girls and Talking, Talk is a 4 letter word
to some males, likely some females too,
i've never been a female, though many seem to
think a lot of what i do have female qualities,
and that's without the ComeOutOfTheSewingCloset2011
so some safe / good topics,
e.g.
talked with a guy in scrubs in the
which now has 3 gMaps gMaps2019
pins for the same store,
AFAC has 2, I've rported both,
and how they merge/ and/or try deleting
the smallest, say most of what i put up,
and the OWNER/ Claim this Business
and merge done by starting over,
anyways, checking on some stuff,
had spent an hour there,
and talked with the real manager
on monday, after being attacked by someone
claiming to be, but turns out not,
at least not there, and their policey of no photos of
products, I was in her way, with fork lift
trying to stock when very busy, Saturday early
afternoon turns out to be when the previous
week they had put out racks of discounted
shoes, etc, which i got one i had been looking for
and a second Winter Boot, but want to probably
exchange for the slip on type,
the slip on instead of lace, and dark colour,
and then there are work boots, the last in my size
and others gone, so limited times, and FUG
fear UnCerTainty and Doubt,
likely all emotions played on by retailr(s)
and thinking on how the delaying tactics,
of talked about the problem of the not working
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bought last year and got all sorts of excuses,
she didn't believe me about something,
there is a grey area in publishing,
citizen journalists,
bloggers and Media and Press,
i made a distinction of have an editor,
and/or doing it all yourself,
having done some editing on other people's
stuff, and lofty goals of FreeDom of the Press,
mentioned elsewhere, and who's paper/
publication are you writing for,
readership and sold, / vs. free,
having recently been looking into Journalism
CensorShip, and how much of what ive put up
has come down/ gone missing,
and how muc hof that is google,
and weeding out outliers,
they may not publuish the real
expeirences of wome of our oppressed
peoples, myself included, so saying it's
ghetto like area and describing attacks
threats, etc, ridicule etc, not good marketing
and just about anybody can complain/ report
a posting, and the poster gets nothing,
about your post on Pin X, has been reported as
Spam,
hateful,
Off Topic,
Not about this Location,
Explicit,
etc...
which may be why he got to look at mom's
phone, and prepaid might be a good start,
Own his ass, a big long leash,
know what and where he is at all times,
how to report problems, i have mom's phone
I'm 10 years old, or whatever,
so not legally responsible for x,y,z
and reporting adults, when adults are
the hate mongers, my mom says
to report people like that,
anyone with bags,
i don't like the looks of him,
etc,, OMG, there's a black man in my neighborhood,
and/or vice versa, OMG a white guy, girl, etc.
in some other neighborhoods...
And getting into the store another day,
a crying kid, loud, and i try the train horn
to provide diversion, the cashier caught on,
and pointed to me, and the kid stopped
for a bit, others noticed the different sound,
and then ,but i wanted to do that,
and/or other stuff likely only fixed
by some rest, getting away from all the tempting
stuff, i want that candy, toy, etc
while parent is worried about cost,
i cry at what i end up paying
trying to support the kid,
without sperm donor/ dad/ whatever they are mad
about , etc...
I miss dad, and other feelings come out,
when they finally talk about what is going
on, and i wanted to walk, want a horn/whistle,
that hat, etc...
So much commercialism,
and i don't think Jesus, Buddha, etc
had this in mind for what XMas, seasons,
traveling, shopping, and commericalisation
is all about...
If your only time spent with kids/
is in cars/vans/buses/
what i want,
maybe talking about why
what it might do for you,
my friends all have phones, i don't
why can't i have one
well, you are losing things, can't find your
socks, shoes, etc and i don't want another
$40+-$200 missing and a bill coming after
etc...
You have you face in a screen 90% of the time
we are around, and i know it's not all school work,
so games have taken over your life,
to the exclusion of the people around you,
so, we don't want to encourage that,
and the games you like are network
games so they eat the data connection,
so you would have to play those at home,
so metered, and prepaid cards, etd
are the only option,
i don't care if your friends all have the new
latest iPhone 25 or whatever,
that is not the kind of kid i want/
and you don't have the grades,
and don't help out around here,
for me to pay that kind of money
for a brat, basically, that is how you are acting,
so not getting it...
and other scripted and real type interactions
holiday time/ and /or not...
Some have missing parents, mine are gone,
so know more what that is like now,
but as a kid, my parents split, divorced,
so not really talking about
that,
What's it like when mom is not around,
why do i have to do all the dishes,
laundry, what am i the maid?
all because you can't keep a marriage together?
and / or your drinking, etc and i wouldn't want to live
with you either, etc...
Anyways imagined language/ drama
and scripting my own little scenarios
of dialogue kids and parents
and others might oversee/ hear
and well, rudolph the red nose old guy,
i happened to have a red light and remote,
turns green too, but not a lot of orange and safety
colours, but could have managed a little something
but the culture and feelings were hate/ displeasure,
and we don't like him, so just left,
walked to anohter,
and eventually by the third, fifth, made a kid laugh
and made it worth while, the dad went to use the bathrom,
and then laughing, making fun of me,
but better emotions than the noisy crying,
perhaps bringing headphnes and ingoring the rest of
the world would have been better but i also could
have been run over, people twice, there were police,
fire, ambulances, perhaps drunk driving and accidents
inattentive and cardiac arrest(s), among other stressors,
i'm walking off a candy bar,
doing errands, having been to three Aldis checking on something,
inventory, found some bargain, cheep things i had wanted to try
but can't spend on laundry if want something else,
so i'm not immune to wanting stuff,
a lot out there and wish/ shoping listss in the thousands of things
to try, eventually ,if/when/ on sale, discounted ,
perhaps after holiday sales, when i usually try stuff,
that new stuffing, varieties, etc
and it's likely just hobby for putting up here,
to try something different,
talking to someone else, sometimes is something different,
not talking, other times is different, for me...
depends, one/ i get pumped up/ exercising and
more awake after/ during, so have more energy,
some other woman played the i'm scared card,
after basically interrogating me,
which i just shook/ shrugged off,
give him something to think about,
and i have to teach him,
when really what i'm doing is none of her business,
her fears/ insecurities, etc are her's not mine,
i happen to be terrible with people with anxiety
disorders, and so much of parenting is probably
about managing that,
so not so helpful,
and some one else(s) stepped in,
she does that,
and some think they can make an exclusive
club out of a place be reporting anyone not
X,Y,Z, Rich, White/Black/Muslim/Catholic, etc
and he/she/it's different, so lets enforce some
unwritten code on his/her/ heir asses
Gang like hate/ hanging/ lynching,
vigilantee (sp ) ism...
When the infraction is imaginary in the first place...
Anyways, I'm glad i'm not religious,
people seem to try to force others to be,
saying happy holidays to someone and getting
bah, humbug back,
may be funny ,depends upon delivery,
mood/ situation, but also
some people are talking to each other,
at least at the superficial level,
who may not have ever said anything to each other
any other time.
so communication, and interaction, looking up,
even for roudolph (sp?)/ rain deer/ the moon,
and winter solstice, coming up, shortly,
see what the weather is like,
blowing winds going thru the jacket
picked up coming back from Manassas,
the Howard sweatshirt was damp
and getting dark/ sunset,
etc so a few pictures of that,
talking to the dog park people,
walk a different route,
try something different,
and get thru another holiday
without...
And some food, and next bread left
out, for strangers, neighbors, some niceties
it seems, random acts of kindness,
probably closer to Jesus/ Buddha,
$WhatEver than the usual,
Santa want you to Buy X,Y,Z
type messages the mainstream
media is flooding us with
recently and mostly...
all sorts of things...
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